Lina Kring Kring!

I'm back, babehhh!

2009-07-30T11:35:00.000-07:00

It's really been a while.

I've been on hiatus for the past months due to being busy and also feeling tired and quite exhausted. But no matter what, life has been great. :)

I've been enjoying myself for the past two months of holiday with my beloved family, my close friend (Aiman), and other friends as well. We had our own time of photoshooting, going to the beach, bowling, cooking (I'm really bad at it. Haha..), watching movies, shopping, swimming, gymming, jogging, night riding, attending events, weddings and so on.. basically having pleasure times together.

And I just had a night of karaoke-ing! :D

Seriously, everything went well although there are arguments, quarrels and big fights that happened between me and my loved ones. I'm pretty glad that we could handle and settle them in a good way.

School started since about one week plus ago and I admit that it's really fun to be back in school again. I can't believe that Solo Fright is in about 7 weeks time but so far, rehearsals and practices have been so good. I like having Exchanges too as we could gather together as a whole Theatre Department and easier to get to know each other. So far, other classes that I had in school is enjoyable too. :)

However, due to H1N1 cases, we, the Theatre Department students have been quarantine and have to stay out of school till this coming Monday. This means holidays again. Haha.. Anyway, hopefully this case will get better soon.

Other than those stuffs that I've mentioned above, I've also been missing Michael Jackson.

He's my childhood all time superstar. Seriously.. I still remember those times when I was young, dancing and singing to his songs with some of my cousins. Ouh.. Those were the times. And now I've been watching videos of him and listening to his songs over and over again like before. Not only that. I know he had been accused of some bad things but hey.. I guess we should see the good side of him. To me, he seems to be a great, honourable guy who helped a lot of people in this world. Who sacrificed for his loved ones and also a loving and caring person to his fans. He loves children and he's really a great father to his children.

I cried when his daughter made a speech.

Rest In Peace, King of Pop, Michael Jackson. You will always be remembered.

Btw, talking about myself, I guess I'm not so feminine as before. I've cut my hair short as I prefer to have short hair now. I actually wanted my hair to be shorter so that I could spike my hair but I know my parents will shout like crazy at me for looking so boyish if I were to cut my hair like that. I don't dress up much now. I'll only dress up if there's some special occassions going on or if once in a while, I feel like to.

And guess what? I don't like to take much pictures anymore like before. But now I actually have someone who have the interest in photography which means we so called swap interests. Infact, the interest is more that mine last time. Hahaha.. He's the model now. :) But I do miss photography though. It's just that now I rather not take much pictures like how I used to due to some reasons except for certain times whereby I could or need to camwhore much. :)

I don't blog that much too. But I will try to share some thoughts, fun times and love together here in my blog as much as I can.

I'm happy with what I have now. :)

I had enough.

2009-06-28T14:32:00.000-07:00

Seems like I've been blogging only a few lines and pictures for each post.

Coz I won't blog in detailed anymore. It's as though I'm trying to tell the whole world about what I'm doing every single day in my life. With who, about what, where, when and stuffs like that.

Just to say that I had enough.

And now I feel irritated in this house.

Sis Rita, Firman and Aiman.

2009-06-27T23:59:00.000-07:00

After months of not meeting them, we finally had a small gathering. :)

We used to hangout often and had fun but I'm sorry for the new situation since months ago. However, I'll still remember you guys.

Thanks a lot for today. I sure had fun. We shall meet up again soon. Sentosa, sis? Cool! :)

Not to forget, I met Aiman too at night for dinner. :)

It's great getting to spend time with all of them. =)

Basah Kuyup

2009-06-26T23:59:00.000-07:00

Marina Barrage again with my family. This time round, I'm all wet with the kids. Haha..

I had so much fun. :)

Tamp.

2009-06-25T23:59:00.000-07:00

Just had my normal usual hangout with Aiman at Tampines. :)

Marina Barrage with beloved Mom. :)

2009-06-24T23:55:00.000-07:00

I love the feeling of making my mom happy. We went to Marina Barrage, something that she's been waiting for.

I love you, Ibu. Although I've somehow neglected you sometimes, still, you know I love you.

=)

Life

2009-06-24T08:59:00.000-07:00

Many things happened these few days. The good ones.. The bad ones..

I'm thankful enough for the happy moments that I had gone through. Well, who doesn't wanna be happy?

And of course there are times whereby I have to tolerate the feelings of hate, anger, frustration and so on. I mean, no one in this world could be happy forever.

All I can say is that I should be patient with anything that's testing myself in life. And with the help of that, hopefully things won't go far worse than it should be.

It's not wrong to be patient though.

Kunjung at Anugerah.

2009-06-23T23:59:00.000-07:00

Aiman and I went to Anugerah 2009 at Mediacorp to support my classmate, Kunjung. Met Chris and friends, Rosemary, her dad and her dad's friend there too. :)

Congratulations, babe! Seriously, I'm so happy for you. May you get to go far in this competition as well as in your future later. Best of luck to you! :D

Not to forget, all the best to the other contestants too. =)

Alhamdullilah.

2009-06-21T23:05:00.000-07:00

Life's great nowadays and I've never been so happy like this before.

I'm very thankful for that. :)

Drag Me To Hell

2009-06-16T23:59:00.000-07:00

I had the worst driving lesson ever today. Urgh. But then, my night was great by watching a movie with Aiman.

Drag Me To Hell.

I tell you.. I loveeeee the movie! :D It's a horror movie but it's not like those scary with ghost here and there. It's more like cursing someone till her life feels like hell.

Thinking about it, these kind of situations do happen in real life whereby someone who couldn't make another person happy about something is therefore being cursed by that same person just because of dissatisfaction. Her life will then be like hell. Though after how many times or by however ways she tries to fight back with the demon, it's not as easy as it is to get rid of the curse. It's hard. The demon is way too strong. Some could survive while unfortunately, some who experienced this could die in the end.

I love the shocking parts in this movie. Can have heart attack, man. Haha..

Plus Misteri Jam 12 on every weekday night. Ahh.. Horror stuffs for hours.

Four - 4

2009-06-15T23:56:00.000-07:00

Me, Aiman, Rose and Greg.

Hanging out was cool. :)

BBQ at Pasir Ris Park with beloved family. :)

2009-06-14T22:41:00.000-07:00

Since I am busy with others too, it's good to spend time with my family at least once a week. Barbequeing, having a picnic, relaxing our minds at the beach and all these activities are ways to keep myself closer to them.

And yes.. I believe it could make me feel so much better. We may not stay till so late at night today but just a few hours with them is already good enough.

I still remember those times when my family and Cik Lin's family were way so close till I always slept over at their house during my holidays or they (my cuzins) will come over just to spend our holidays together. We played football, did silly breakdancing (HAHA!), went to Wild Wild Wet, barbequed and we were even together when Cik Lin had major problems which led to us not being so close anymore since then.

But here we are again.. Trying to have outings together and be happy.

Families can't be separated no matter what happens.

I guess I'll be having outings with my family on every weekend whenever we are all free.

I love going to the beach. :)

Night swim. :)

2009-06-11T23:59:00.000-07:00

After driving class this morning and shopping around with mom for dad's birthday present, I managed to get some sleep before I went to meet Aiman.

Going for a night swim is so cool. I love the feeling.
Thanks a lot for today and also your jemput-jemput. It is really delicious. :)

School..

2009-06-10T23:59:00.000-07:00

I'm lucky that I cancelled my early driving lesson this morning as I'm afraid that I couldn't wake up on time. I'll try to book a lesson on Friday instead to cover it up.

I went to school in the afternoon with Aiman to actually get our stuffs there. I seriously need to get back my father's songkok. One is in school while the other is with Fortu. I can only get back the one at school since Fortu is away to Indonesia for this whole month. But sadly to say, C4-09 is already being cleared and of course, the songkok is not there now. Alamak.. How eh.. Even Aiman's shoes aren't there anymore.

Hmm.. We just sit around in school then. Aiman managed to view the pictures that he got from Gobi and we then headed for dinner. We sat there and chit-chatted for quite long since we don't know what else to do today other than annoying each other. Haha..

So we actually went back to school today eh.. for nothing. -__-

But it's okay. At least we got to hangout rather than feeling bored at home. :)

Anugerah at Mediacorp. :)

2009-06-09T23:59:00.000-07:00

Had an early driving class today. And since the car needs to be send for servicing too, my mom drove me to the driving school.

Drving lessons are so far so good. The main problem now is.. I'm very bad in directions. -__-

Btw, met my parents and the lil nephew at AMK Hub after lesson since our car is being serviced for two hours. So meanwhile, we went to have our meal.

And my lil nephew is always someone who could entertain us. While we were eating, Aniq scratched his head with his spoon still on his hand and it's as though he's scratching his head with that spoon filled with food.

Mom: Aniq! put your spoon down first if you want to scratch your head.
Aniq: Itchy whattttt! Craaazy!

HAHA! What a funny boy. I got to know from his mom that he likes to follow what people are saying nowadays. So I guess, I better be careful in whatever I'm saying infront of him. Hehe..

We were pretty bored waiting for the car to be done with servicing, polishing and all. So we decided to camwhore in the car. :p

Ouh and guess what? Afterwards, I went to Mediacorp with Aiman since Kunjung had 10 free tickets for tonight's show. So why not?

It's just too bad that we couldn't snap any photos while they are performing. My 2nd time going to Mediacorp and it was memorable.

All the best to Kunjung and all the contestants. Congrats, babe, for going for the next round. :)

Since we need to be home quite late after Anugerah, we had supper together before we headed home. :)

Btw, something happened during the break which I find it very bad. Aiman and I was shocked but I guess it's not only us who felt it. Hmm.. Just don't understand these kind of people.

:)

2009-06-05T23:14:00.000-07:00

Vivo. Another tough journey happened but I'm very glad that everything's back to normal again. :)

And I bumped into a few people that I know today.

- Fatimah, one of my close secondary school friends, but I couldn't call her name coz I'm in the bus on my way to Tampines and I don't have her contact number. And I'm actually happy for her about something. :)
- Faiz (Afiq's cousin) and his friends, Sani, Ima and some others. Hope we could still keep in touch with each other. :)
- Heryani and Mardinah, my secondary school and also Tarian and Silat friends. Terkam aku tak agak2 wooo.. Haha! :)

I'm so happy to bump into you guys.

Despite the argument, I managed to feel good till the end of the day. :) Well, who won't argue with your close ones right?

And driving lessons was great. So far so good. I seriously can't wait to get my driving license soon. :)

Awesome time at Wild Wild Wet! :)

2009-06-04T23:12:00.000-07:00

The outing to Wild Wild Wet with my seniors is awesomeeeeeeeeeeee! :D

- Our tough and fun journey in the wave pool.
- Took Ular-lah a few times just to snap a very nice photo of us.
- The miscommunication between two places when we went for the purple slide ride.
- Our scary but funny faces while taking the U-shaped ride.
- Our slow but scary bicycle ride.
- Us playing around in the Syiok River.
- Took pictures at the end of the day.
- Had a very nice dinner at Simpang Bedok.
- Hangout with Aiman for a while at Tampines.

I really wish to share all the fun here but to describe everything in detail will definitely be a very super long post. All I can say is that I seriously had fun with them just now.

Today's a day that really put a smile to my face. Thanks, guys. Love you all. :)

Mustafa

2009-06-03T23:39:00.000-07:00

Gymming is cancelled but I headed to Mustafa Centre with Aiman and Rosemary to meet Greg there.

Cool, isn't it, to have a day out for the four of us. Just a simple outing can simply make my day a good one. :)

As I grew up, I've been through more. There's the good and the bad ones when I entered it.

Afraid

2009-06-02T13:56:00.000-07:00

Loved ones are the ones who'll always be there for you no matter what happens. It doesn't only mean your lover. It can be your parents, best friends.. Basically, anyone from either gender.

Of course we tend to love those happy moments together. Going through so many great things together, sharing jokes, life stories, laughters as well as doing a lot of fun stuffs together as one.. That's one of the reasons why we still stay strong.

Quarrels, fights, arguments. All these happened for a reason. Without it, I guess the relationship between the both of you won't be stronger. I know people wouldn't like to quarrel and have big arguments. Who likes it, btw? However, certain misunderstandings are memorable.

Just like others, I'll be feeling very down and mad after having a tiff with my loved ones, especially if it happens without an ending to it. When we quarrel, all I really wish for is to get back together. But to make it happen, we need two hands to clap. If bad things like this goes on till it eventually broke everything into pieces, I know it'll definitely pull me down.

Getting scolded over certain matters are pretty normal. We can and definitely should be nice to each other but I guess, we need to be a little harsh in some ways. Because when someone scolds you about something bad to let you know which is right and which is wrong, that's when you know who actually cares for you in life.

However, there's a limit to all these. Don't be too mean to each other. Who knows it may ruin the friendship/relationship that you guys has been building up together since the very first moment. I guess too much control from each other isn't good too.

Some even went missing from each other but will get back together again after so many years. Some others managed to settle things out within a short period of time. You many blame each other in the first place but still, be considerate and think about what happened again. It may be his/her fault but it may be yours too. If either of you really thinks that it's your fault, then don't be too afraid to admit or apologize. Be brave. By doing it, it doesn't mean that you have lost. In a battle, either one of you will be the winner and that's very normal. Because apologizing is one of the best way to cool things down and talk things out. It's all up to you.

If you and your loved ones are fated to be back together again and when you realized that your friendship/relationship is still going on strong for a very long period of time despite having upteen times of shits, I'm sure you'll be very happy with it. You guys then started to recall back your past memories with each other and when it comes to remembering those petty arguments, big fights and so on, you'll somehow think about it. How did you guys eventually ended up still being happy together after going through all that? You'll smile after recalling back those moments. Only God knows the answer coz He gave you that person as a very precious gift to you in life.

And loved ones are the ones who can make you happy not only when you guys are in good terms but also when you are feeling very down. He or she is someone who will be there for you to keep you company, lend you a listening ear and help you as much as he/she can when you are in need. Accepting each other truly from inside out is also another thing to consider. Screw up the meaning of loved ones if that person don't go through all these together with you.

Don't be too sad about not having a special boyfriend or girlfriend in your life. What's the point of having someone who's officially your special one but who's not there for you all the time when you are in need? It's better to have someone who have no strings attached to you but will go through every single moment together no matter how much difficulties you guys need to face in the future.

Trust me.. Losing your loved ones isn't a nice feeling at all. I know I have regrets in some of my past friendships/relationships due to my faults but on the other hand, I'm sure it's good that I've let go the ones that shouldn't be for me. I'm glad I've lost the depression that I had before after experiencing all these in life. And now I'm pretty much contented with the people I have in my life now.

No matter what, there's always something good behind all these difficulties. :)

A Little Too Not Over You

2009-06-01T08:46:00.000-07:00

It never crossed my mind at all
That's what I tell myself
What we had has come and gone
You're better off with someone else

It's for the best I know it is but I see you
Sometimes I try to hide what I feel inside
And I turn around, you're with him/her now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you, not over you

Aren't memories supposed to fade?
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go
Didn't think it'd be this hard

Should be strong, movin' on but I see you
Sometimes I try to hide what I feel inside
And I turn around, you're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Maybe I regret everything I said
No way to take it all back, yeah
Now I'm on my own, how I let you go
I'll never understand
I'll never understand!

Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
And I really don't know what to do
I'm just a little too not over you, not over you

Tell me why

2009-05-31T23:59:00.000-07:00

Tell me why I'm so different now.

Pasir Ris Park

2009-05-30T23:55:00.000-07:00

A day with silly arguments.

As usual, Aiman and I hangout today. I accompanied him after his work, shopping for some of his stuffs and then coz we had nothing much to do today, he suggested the beach, which is cool.. Coz the beach is where I've always wanted to go. :) And since we are at Tampines, we decided to head to Pasir Ris Park since it's the nearest for us.

We bought our food and some other important stuffs at Pasir Ris and then we proceeded our way there. But.. we got so called lost coz we don't really know how to go there by bus. Don't know what bus to take. Don't know where to alight also.

And guess what? We argued about Pasir Ris Park and Pasir Ris Town Park.

Me - Is Pasir Ris Town Park and Pasir Ris Park the same? No, right?
Aiman- Halo.. It's the same..
Me - Huh? No laaaaaa. Not the same. DIfferent laaaa.
Aiman - Yessss.. Pasir Ris Town Parkkkk! I remember... That time when I was in sec 5, I had my cross-country there. At Pasir Ris Town Park. Eh the distance is not that far, you know. It's quite okay to walk.
Lina - Where got? Pasir Ris Park is very far from the interchange. And both are not the same places la.
Aiman - Eh Pasir Ris Town Park and Pasir Ris Park are the same laaa.

Okay nvm. I called my mom, my dad, my auntie and I received an sms from my cuzin telling us the way to go there. We even asked one of the bus drivers to double check about it. And remember.. the bus is 403.

But we waited for the bus for so long and we had quite a number things on our hands and when the bus goes off, the next stop is Pasir Ris Town Park. We thought of alighting but we didn't. Macammana ni.. Nak turun ke tak nak. And so we were stuck in the bus as we were brought to don't know where in Pasir Ris. I quickly called my cousin and asked her about the right way. Sekali tengah bebual kat telefon, both of us saw these words clearly. Big big somemore.
'Pasir Ris Park'

Lina - There I told you! Pasir Ris Town Park and Pasir Ris Park are not the same. Your cross-country is at Pasir Ris Town Park la so maybe that's why you could walk there without taking transport.
Aiman - *Smiling, smiling and smiling*

-__-

Ok nvm. And then kat sana dah dapat spot untuk duduk, I felt so nice being at the beach. :)

Tapi masih tak tenteram gakkkkkkk.

He was lying down and I was sitting beside him. We were eating and having some conversation when suddenly, I saw a small tiny winy spider crawling on his head. And he actually felt it crawling too. And both of us were.. Ahh.. Nvm.

Because of that, we argued.

He happily eh see me trying so hard to overcome my fear of these creepy crawlies. Happily smiling and laughing. In the end, I don't even know whether I caught the spider or not coz it ran away to don't know where. And because of losing the feeling of sitting there again, we just moved to the big rock instead.

So yeah.. we moved. We moved tau. Happily sat there with no grass so we assumed that there's no insects or creepy crawlies there. But all of a sudden, I saw a damn big cockroach coming towards Aiman. And Aiman's back is facing that cockroach. So, being a big 'fan' of cockroach, I was so scared that I stood up and walked a bittttt far away from where we are sitting, leaving him sitting there alone. And all he said was..

"AH! THANK YOU EH. THANK YOU SO MUCH, LINA. YOU SAW A COCKROACH AND YOU JUST WALKED AWAY. THANK YOU EH."

Hehe! So sorry la, Aiman. I wanted to pull you away from there too but. Haiyaa.. I don't know la. You know I'm so scared of that thing, right?

And because of a freaking big cockroach, we argued again.

Aiman - Eh tak tenteram betol ahhhhh.
Lina - Fed up sey.
Aiman - You la! Cockroach also scared.
Lina - Eh! Suka hati ah. Dah takut kan. Apa nak buat. Aku tolak kau kat bawah tu baru tahu.
Aiman - Ah tolak ah! Tolak! Nanti hantu aku datang duduk kat bilik kau, baru tahu.
Lina - Just shut up.
Aiman - Eh what's wrong with you huh? I think eh.. If you have the chance to kill me, you'll kill me right? Entah2, aku dah kena tanam dalammmm2 sekali kat dalam pasir tu. Pasir tu kau dah korek2 gaknya. *Blablabla.. He membebel.*

OMG!!! From cockroch, we went to tolak la, hantu la, pasir la.. -___-

But then.. We just sat back down there, pretending not to see anything crawling. I sat a bit far from where the cockroach came. Hehe.. and he decided to lie down at that spot where I sat just now.

Then we had a good time, talking, eating, sharing stories and so on. Woah.. Finally, a moment of peace!

But seriously, I don't feel like going home. Being at the beach is just so peaceful, looking at the sea, the sky.. Sometimes recalling back our past memories.

Well, though we had arguments and having some hard times to figure out stuffs together, I still feel that it's a nice feeling to hangout at the beach like this. Like what Aiman said when were laying down our trash bags just now at the big rock...

"Biarlah kita mengharungi ini semua sama-sama."

Muahahahahaha! Funny boy.

Yeah.. You rock, Aiman. :)

Cruise

2009-05-29T23:49:00.000-07:00

Yeay! We were at Keppel Bay again just now but it's Trudy's first time to be there. :)

I love Keppel Bay. One of the most beautiful places that I would go to have peace. To sit around, having serious chats and feel the cool breeze around it.

Thanks, guys, for the night. :)

Smile

2009-05-27T20:24:00.000-07:00

Thinking about it again, why should I still feel so down?

Afterall, I still have my beloved family and my best close friend being by my side, always spending time together happily. Not to forget, some of the others too who care for me and could make me happy though we don't always spend time together.

Why on earth would I still be sad about what happened in the past? It's over and I should be very glad that all those burden has already gone rather than letting them haunting me and making me feel weaker.

I'm seriously happy with what I have now. I rather only have my family, my best close friend and some others who never fail to cheer me up than having so many people who'll always break my heart.

I should smile more. Infact, I am smiling now. :)

Picking Up

2009-05-24T23:47:00.000-07:00

The past has always been haunting me and I hate the fact that I still didn't get over it. The mistakes that I made has left a very big impact on me. How I wish I could get better though I know it will never be the same as before. And I've always been falling sick after so long of bearing those heartaches. All these shits.. They somehow changed me. I'm always feeling so angry now. Angry, frustrated, feeling so down.. Just all those negative emotions. Yes.. I may be nice but now, I may not. And when I'm mean, that's when I realized that I shouldn't be that way in life. I hate it when one minute, I'm feeling happy and another minute, I'm off to sit somewhere and wanna be alone just because those bad histories came back haunting me.

And to those who only wanna create more trouble, just don't read my blog. I have my own freedom of speech here and whatever, whoever, whenever or how I wanna blog about here shouldn't matter to others. I'm not advertising anyone here or to make him/her popular by blogging.

I just had enough. I'm glad that I lost everything that's bad. And anything that still stays good with me now, hopefully will last.

But I admit, I'm trying to pick up the happiness back in me with my beloved family and true friends and today did make me feel better.

Family at Parkway Parade. Shopping for lil nephew's birthday present. Had lunch. Car-riding. Basically a weekend outing with family.

And then met Aiman at Tampines.. Chilling at his place, watching DVDs, eating, bicycle-riding, internet.

Both companies make my day good today.

Family love. :)

2009-05-23T23:59:00.000-07:00

I had so much fun with my beloved family at the beach today. Seriously.
Pasir Ris Park was the location for the day. =D

Recalling what me and my family did and went through a lot together with Cik Lin's family before is really a very memorable journey. I still remember last time when we were so close to each other. Sometimes, I slept over at their (my cuzins) house for a few nights or vice versa. There are times when we went fishing till almost 3am in the morning, shopping together around Singapore, had fun gatherings and great outings, swimming, barbeque at the beach and so on. Till one day something unexpected happened to Cik Lin, which led to a serious matter and we somehow drifted apart from each other because of having so much of our own personal problems.

And today, we had an outing again. At the beach. We spent our day eating so much food that we brought from home or from other places, sitting down, chit-chatting. Some of us went to change so that we could get ourselves dirty by playing with salt water and sand. When night arrives, we barbequed some food as well as enjoying ourselves having fun moments together. The lil one went to the playground to play around and some of us, being adults, had to accompany her there since she's the only small one and the playground is not that near to our sitting place. But guess what? We played along at the playground too till we fell like some monkeys, screaming and shouting like some kiddies. Haha.. Well, there's always a kid in us. My uncle went fishing too and he managed to catch a stingray. Cool. :)

Didn't we expect to be back home after midnight. Although I felt tired, I truly enjoyed myself for the whole day today. No unreasonable arguments. Only laughters and happiness. :)

Furthermore, with the convenience of transport in my family now, the feeling of good is way better.

Simply so much love that's happening around me today. =D

feeding cats

2009-05-22T23:59:00.000-07:00

I still remember.. There was once when I was very young, after I came back from NTUC with my dad, I saw a cute cat while my dad was talking to one of our neighbours. Being a cat lover, I decided to play with it and give it some food.

I love chocolates a lot. So my dad bought for me lots of chocolates. One of them is the big Cadbury Dairy Milk Chocolate. So what did I do? I went to the cat, plucked out a piece of chocolate from the one that I got and gave to it. But of course the cat didn't eat it. Where got cat eat chocolate bar one??!! And I still could feel so angry about the cat not eating my chocolate. Haha..

Then yesterday, while hanging out with Aiman at Macd, I saw a cat and I fed it with my chicken Mcnuggets. I ended up not eating them that much and fed them to the cat instead. Lol..

Btw, Happy 6th Birthday, Aniq Naufal!
Dah big boyyyyyyyyyy! :D

Me and other's life.

2009-05-21T23:30:00.000-07:00

I've always been complaining about having arguments, feeling so stress, going through so much of pain in my life and so on. I know those negative stuffs are pulling me down but I shouldn't get too carried away by them. Till I ended up falling sick, troubling people, being so cranky and irritating, scolding people here and there and worst of all, change to a more bad person.

Coz I realized that there's still people out there who already went and are still going through worst than me in life. After I read it, I find it sad to have a family like that. I find it so heartbroken to have more bad friends and experiencing a harder love life. Also, being controlled by everyone and having a too overprotective family is worst than my situation. Furthermore, not that smooth in the academic line, I guess I should not feel so bad for not doing so good in school.

Hope she'll be strong.

At least I had some things that made me feel good today.

Driving lesson was alright. I seriously felt so much better today, being able to practice more and more on the circuit as well as on the road.

And with another time to hangout again with Aiman and talked about stuffs, another reason to feel good too. Plus coincidentally Rosemary was there at Yishun with the help of Greg, (who actually saw us walking outside Delifrance and quickly came to us to meet up. Hehe..), it brings back the moment of our (Cockroach, Lizard and Tikus) usual hanging out at Yishun. :)

When I reached home, I got to know that my lil nephew slept at my house tonight. That cheers me up too. I did play and joke around with him before he went to sleep.

I may have a good day but that doesn't mean a same happy day for the ones who were there together with me today. A great day doesn't mean it'll definitely end in a great way. Like what happens nowadays to me. One minute I'm happy, the other minute, I'm not.

I feel you, buddy. Will help you out a.s.a.p. Cheer up.

Orang sunat.

2009-05-20T13:01:00.000-07:00

Orang sunat. This is what happens.

SOOOOOOOOOOOOO HYPER EHHH tu anak sedara. Tak padan ngan kena sunat. :D

Driving! :)

2009-05-19T23:51:00.000-07:00

Had my very first practical driving lesson today. Haha..

I learnt the basics about driving a car. The adjusting of mirrors, turning of sterring wheel, adjusting seats, meters, clutch, break, accelerator and so on.

And I'm so short la. I find it hard to look forward to the road while I'm driving.

First thing that I did was to practice my viting point. Izzit? Viting point of biting point? Haha.. I don't know. I need to move the car forward and backwards repeatedly using gear 1 and try to get the viting point till I'm alright with it.

Moving on, I was told to drive the car on the circuit itself. I find it a lil hard at first coz it's really my first time and my left leg hurts after a long period of time practising with gear 1.

But as I picked up speed, I was taught to change to gear 2. Huhu.. Cool. That's when I don't need to use clutch so much anymore to make the car free wheeling. Hilang penat kaki kiri aku sekejap.

So I kept practising more and more changing of gear 1 and gear 2.

About turning, haha.. I was somehow stupid at this.

I should actually turn the steering wheel a lil bit if the bend is not so sharp. But imagine, to me, as long as the car is turning, I will keep turning and turning the steering wheel. And that makes my car went out of lane. My turn is usually sharper than it should be. Dah lah speed kereta aku kena slow. Bila turning, lagiii slow. Selagi kereta tu pusing pelan2, selagi tu la aku nak pusingkan steering wheel. :p

But luckily, after practising, everything was alright. :)

Thanks, cik Shahril. He's my uncle, btw. LOL. I booked a fixed instructor so I don't have to learn with many different methods from different instructors coz different people teach differently.

So lesson learnt - Don't keep turning the steering wheel although the car is turning eh. Turn sikit2 je. Haha..

My mom waited for me for the 2 hours of me having driving lesson. I accompanied her back home, listening to her story. Tak habis2 ah. Nak kena sound ni. Siapa yang makan buah asam, dialah yang terasa masam ye. Just stay strong, ibu.

Then, I met Aiman. Finally, there's a time to hangout after so long of spending so much time in school. :)

He wanted to swim and I was jealous! LOL. :p Nahhh.. Just jealous coz it's really been a while since I last went for a swim at the swimming pool. But sadly to say, even if I wanted to go for a swim, I don't know where is my swimming costume. Singapore ni dah lah kena pakai swimming costume kalau swim kat swimming pool. WAJIB WOO! -__-

Hmm.. furthermore, I was quite sick so I guess I shouldn't go for a swim yet. I forgot to bring my PSP but he brought a ghost story book for me. Thanks. :) At least I could read something while waiting for him to finish swimming.

But still, I wanna go for a swim soon. :)

We also had dinner at Foodonalds. Hoho.. (An inspired name by one of my classmates, E-van).

Ok I know I'm sick. Having a bad soar throat, slight fever and sometimes migrane, I still ordered my McNuggets meal. Tapi end up, aku suruh Aiman yang habiskan. Coz my throat really hurts when the food goes in. Sucky..

Well, having a time like this feels so good. Wish my holiday could be a meaningful one with beloved people. Just like my previous holiday. :)

And guess what, I've been peeing for so many times since the past 2 days. Crazy or what.

I guess I'm really sick.

Ouh ya.. Saw Syikin when I was on my way back home at Tampines just now. When I'm at Tampines One, I'll visit you k. Hehe.. Take care, babe! :)

Tired

2009-05-18T21:36:00.000-07:00

I'm so cranky today.

After having body aches all over, I decided to really take a break today by resting at home. I would really like to apologize to my seniors for not being able to support them again for their last night and also last graduation show. After I msged Aiman about it, I decided to go back to sleep but unfortunatey, not for long. I was awaken by my mom asking me about taking my driving license today onwards but I told her I don't want coz I wanna have a rest today since I'm not feeling well. I know she's not happy as well as I myself too, for not having any rest since school close but after having some arguments, I decided to go for it from tmrw onwards. Now I feel so tired.

I then thought I could have a whole day rest today but no. I had no choice but to take my PDL at SSDC just because of my family's tmrw's schedule. I don't feel good again. With these aches all over I just forced myself to go out of the house. Another argumnent between me and my mom again while we were on our way there.

But at least I felt better after having lunch with my mom and also managed to get the permission from my dad to buy a new top each for the both of us (since I don't have that much money now).

We then went home and since it's about time to send my lil nephew home, my mom decided to fetch his mom from work. But I was pretty much bored in the car as I did nothing much and the body pain is still there. Basically, I'm just tired of waiting.

Only one thing that cheers me up while I'm in the car - My lil nephew.

He was sitting at the back with me and since no one entertain him that much, he decided to entertain himself which I find it funny and cute. :)

My mom stopped the car at a carpark which could fill two cars at the same lane. We were at the left side oif the lane. So what did he actually do? Whenever he sees a vehicle wanting to pass by, he sticked his head and hands out of the car and waved to them and said,

"Ok go! Go! Park there! Stop! Ok go! Cik Nur, you see. I police!"

Woah.. Like one traffic police like that. Hahaha.. :) The people in every car that passed by all were smiling and giggling at him.

And it's been days since he wears kain for 24 hrs. Budak baru kena sunat, katakan. With his baju that looks like batik, he looks like some Javanese boy from Indonesia. Hehe.. So cute.

ALso, I feel excited for my driving lessons though. Wish I could pass soon. :)

Other than that, I'm so cranky and pissed and not feeling so good. Now I'm having a fever and migrane.

I'm so tired of everything for now.

The Mat Jawa. :p

You

2009-05-17T11:05:00.000-07:00

Hating you hurts.

Two

2009-05-15T10:19:00.000-07:00

"Aku benci kau!"
"Biarlah aku berdiam diri."
"Kau tak tahu betapa seksanya aku sekarang!"
"Sabar. Tu je yang aku bleh buat."
"Aku dah tak tahan lagi!"
"Boleh tak aku lari jauh dari sini?"
"Pergi mampus kau!"
"Aku simpan semua perasaan ni.
"Kau tahu aku berdendam!"
"Biar aku duduk bersendirian."
"Kau ingat aku ni siapa kau nak main2kan aku?!"
"Takpelah. Ni semue takdir."
"Alah.. Dulu kau pon sama per!"
"I'll always be there for you."
"Tak paham ah aku ngan perangai dorang!"
"Don't worry. I won't take it too seriously."
"Macam budak2!"
"Aku tak marah. Takpe."
"Sanalah! Jangan kacau aku!"
"I love you."
"Ape?!"
"Aku sayang kau."
"Kau sedar diri kau tu sikit!"
"I have to be strong."
"Kepala otak kau lah!"
"Aku kena kuat."
"Kalau kau berani, sini ah!"
"Aku tak dapat nak berterus terang."
"Bodoh!"
"I kept quiet still."
"Kau keluar ngan dia, kau ingatkan aku tak marah ke pe?!"
"Tak nak."
"Eh kau tak paham2 bahasa ke pe?!"
"Aku cintakan kau."
"Kau ingat kau tu pandai sangat!"
"Aku minta maaf."
"Tak abes2 balik lambat!"
"Aku takkan buat lagi."
"Duit! Duit! Duit!!!"
"Hey! How are you?"
"Yelah. Kau kan sama je perangai. Betol tak ape aku cakap?!"
"Janganlah fikir macam tu."
"Asal kau takut sangat ni?!"
"Aku tak kisah asalkan kau happy."
"Aku terlalu baik sangat kan?!"
"Hati aku semakin sakit."
"Just shut your mouth!"
"I'm healing slowly."
"Kau ke aku yang patot berdendam sekarang ni?!"
"Aku nak tenangkan fikiran aku sekejap."
"Tak yah balik sudah!"
"Tak susah untuk tunjukkan kasih sayang."

That refers to everything in my life.

Looking back, I've had enough of those same moments. Furthermore with two different personalities that I've been playing around with. It hurts to lie but sometimes the truth hurts too.

Assumption

2009-05-14T23:23:00.000-07:00

Had a kenduri for my late grandmother just now and I met some of my maternal cuzins and family members there. I love them. :)

I guess I already know why it happened. However, I'm just assuming. I can't guarantee about the real situation as I'm not the one who knows everything. But if what I assumed is right, then things may change and obstacles may arrive anytime.

Seriously...

2009-05-13T21:11:00.000-07:00

There's only four of them but just because of some arguments only among them, they aren't united anymore, except for one.

Things can don't seem right sometimes but imagine.. just because of that, everything needs to be done twice. Why can't each and everyone of them attend it at the same time?

Think about her. She may not be here anymore but she may feel the sadness when all her loved ones are not there at the same time.

I really don't understand.

One more thing.
The first, second, third and fifth are in the same category while the fourth and the sixth are in the same other category.
But both categories aren't acceptable to me and still some of them could ask me why am I so evil to them nowadays.

Stupid.

On Screen Keyboard, My Life Savour!

2009-05-12T23:53:00.000-07:00

Syikin actually talked to me on msn but because of my 'Enter' button that came out from the place itself, I coudn't reply her at all in msn. Shitty right? I know..

But guess what? I nudged her and replied her in my MSN Nickname instead. Haha.. Another alternative way to chat in MSN. Luckily she understands my situation.

The same goes to Haq too. But I had a longer conversation with him. You know about what? About him giving me 3000 Rupiah to buy a new laptop. Macam paham.. Hahaha.. :p

And yes.. I ended up replying him in my MSN Nickname too. :p

But then.. I was browsing through the internet, hoping that I could find a way to solve this problem, I actually found one.

I downloaded the ON SCREEN KEYBOARDDDDDDDDDD!!!

Woohooooo! Now I'm able to press my 'Enter' and 'Backspace' buttons. Cool la but a bit leceh coz I have to click those buttons using my mouse. Luckily I am still able to type using my own keyboard rather than the on screen one. If not, bila nak game daaa..

My parents laughed at me for doing this kind of stuffs.

But whatever it is, I'm happy. Seteruk-teruk laptop aku pon, it still can be used. Haha.. :)

So now peeps, I can chat with you guys on MSN.
Only one question: The On Screen Keyboard is a trial software. So how long can I use it for my laptop?

Tak forever plak.. -___-

Done!

2009-05-12T18:59:00.000-07:00

Today marks the last day for me as a year 2 student in NAFA.

I've submitted my Stage Model Making assignment, which is doing a stage set based on the theme circus.

Also, there's another module being taught by the same lecturer - Theatre Costume. I had a hard time doing this assignment but still, I managed to get it done by doing whatever that I had in my mind. Glad to hand it on time too.

My feelings have been pulled down since that very day in Speech and Text class. However, I'm happy to hear the positive comments on the feedback time itself. I'm done with Shakespeare's monologue and Taming of The Shrew scenes.

I don't think the story about the twin for my upcoming Solo Flight next year is a fixed one coz it's more to adult or teens play and I'm not sure if I could do it well. I would like to do a children's play but still, I may stick to this story for next year. The prposal for my Solo flight has been handed in.

The song 'A Whole New World' from Aladdin the musical was sang by me during my singing assessment. Like what Thomas said, I should play safe by singing just a part of the song so as not to let myself go more out of tune. I did it and I got to know my result too. Still, I would like to improve more for singing in the future.

At first, I thought the practical and theory for Body and Movements class (dance) is gonna be quite tough. But it turned out pretty well. I'm sure we are all feeling so glad after performing the dance and answering Elena's questions quite well. Furthermore, with her last words towards us, it makes me feel better.

BIGUNOK, PEOPLEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

I had fun performing my malay drama scene. Being the younger character of Chot is a good feeling as well as acting with Pungut (Kunjung) and Salmiah (Farah) with the help of our director (Bernice). And I really enjoyed Zizi's malay drama class. I learnt more useful things during my journey there.

I played the role as a grandmother this time. The oldest but became more hyper and crazy when I mixed around with the other girls in my group who are playing the pretty and sexy roles. Haha.. I sure had a lot more fun performing these Repertoire Scenes this time round - Comedy Plays.

I did a very short movement piece called 'My First Morning In New York City' for Acting Technique assessment. It's kinda hard to explain each and every of our movements based on Laban's technique. Well, dancing has a lot of meanings to it. I'm done with the movements and the report.

And lastly, the theory for English Drama History is done too. It's a 100 question MCQ paper and I felt good that I could answer most of it though I had difficulties answering some of it. I like MCQ questions rather than essays.

But still, I'm left with Emcee Arts & Skills class. I guess there's no particular exam to it but by what we recorded before in the class for the radio play, we should hear the final product as a class one day.

Ouh ya.. The year 3s Graduation Show, Hip-Hopera, is coming soon this weekend. Good luck, my lovely seniors. All the best and enjoy yourselves during your last moments in NAFA before you guys graduate later. :)

So far, assessments and exams are done and my holidays are here. I'm so gonna ease my mind at Keppel Bay soon, going to the beach again and having a good time with my loved ones anywhere where it's nice to be. Swimming, gymming, overnight at the beach, theme park and so on. All these would be nice.

Hurray for the holidays! :D

p/s: I'm currently using my mom's laptop. My laptop is giving me a very hard time now as the 'Enter', 'Backspace' and 'Delete' buttons on my keyboard can't be used anymore. Worst still, the 'Enter' button came out of it's place after I so called digged it. -__- Maybe I'm just too violent to my laptop. It's a gone case matter already, btw.

So at the moment, I can come online using my laptop but I won't be able to chat at all as I can't enter anything that I typed on msn itself. Unless if I come online using my mom's laptop or the computer. Grrrr.. Ada je masalah datang. Luckily school's work are all done.

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I know I'm hiding something.
But I don't know exactly what is it
which is something that's bothering me.
I hate this feeling so much.

I coudn't get over everything also.
From the beginning till the end.
I wish I could feel better again.

PRP

2009-05-10T21:04:00.000-07:00

Finally, a day at the beach, releasing some stress in myself.

With my beloved family around me and having the time to spend with them after so long of being so busy, I feel so much better. Especially with the 'new good feeling' in us.

Some things are just so good and sometimes, I really should look at the bright side of life to give myself hope again.

:)

Thoughts

2009-05-09T23:59:00.000-07:00

I'm glad that you still stay with me as a friend, doing school work or any other stuffs together, which makes me feel that we both go through the ups and downs so much already till now. At least something that cheers me up everyday. This kind of friendship hopefully last forever.

Apart from that, I've been wondering.. after what I've gone through with so many different people out there, I feel that sometimes it's best that I be alone or at least, reduce socializing, which I think is not a good thing.

There's no point having so many people with me but not a single person could make me feel better. Some took advantage while some actually make me feel miserable. Maybe it's just me who's blind or just being stupid to be a 'dog' to them.

About myself, maybe I'm too nice and I hate that.

When I was young, I don't really socialize with people. I'm a very quiet girl who's afraid to voice out. Till I involved myself in Drama and other performing arts since I was eight years old, that's when I became more active and start to make friends with people. I even decided and placed high hopes on myself at first to involve majorly in Drama but when I'm in one now, I seemed to be back to what I am when I was younger back then.

I'm now quieter and I seem to see myself slowly turning back to my old young self. I don't talk much now. Furthermore, with all those burdens from unnecessary people who appeared in my life before just to pull me down and me being very stupid to even stand a place in their lifes, it adds on to me not being able to be as happy as before now.

Seriously, I don't wanna dissappoint my parents.

I know I've not been a good daughter. Compared to my brother, I'm not easy to handle due to so many problems that I've created. Even till now, I still give them a hard time. I hate to compare but for this case, I guess it's good to learn the good things from my brother.

About school, I'm only left with one more theory assesment and then comes my nearly two months of holiday. Honestly, I don't know if I'll be looking forward to it or not. I have this feeling of leaving Singapore for a moment but I guess it won't happen. If only it will.

I felt the pain in my lungs again just now as well as having migrane. Hate this feeling so much. Realizing that I've not been taking care of my health that well nowadays, I regretted.

So much more to say yet everything's jammed in my mind.

I'm weak.

Curing

2009-05-05T18:25:00.000-07:00

I'm done with most of my school assessment - Speech and Text, Body and Movement, Malay Drama, Singing and Play Writing. And I'm glad that I've handed in my Model Making sets well as Theatre Costume on time. Finally, they are done.

My Repertoire Scenes are coming up. Now I'm having rehearsals till the very day itself.

And then I've yet to prepare my one minute monologue movement piece with the report for Acting Technique assessment this Friday. Next tuesday will be my English Drama History assessment, which is officially the last day of school for year 2.

Do come for my Repertoire Scenes if you want to. :)

Ouh yeah.. Congrats to Andrew's group for your great Shakespeare show. :)

I'm waiting for my holidays to ease my mind. And hopefully the outing to the beach with my family this Sunday is still on. With some things not going on so well and some things that even failed, I know I'm still in not a good state.

Furthermore, missing people hurts badly.

Obstacles

2009-05-05T14:59:00.000-07:00

Obstacles are things that will make someone stronger.
But I became weaker instead.

Torn

2009-05-04T01:49:00.000-07:00

Right now..

If I were to say that I'm not sad, I lied.
I said I'm not heartbroken at all, I lied.
I said I'm not mad, furious and frustrated, I lied.
If I didn't teared for what happened.. Again, I lied.

Coz the same thing happened again.

I don't know why it seems so easy to you.
I thought this would be the last and hopefully, forever.
But it didn't work out.

I don't wanna end it.
But you asked for it.
Hope you know that it cuts deeply.

I need to heal a broken heart again.

Questions Unanswered.

2009-05-02T23:59:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I feel, am I too nice or too harsh?
I can't judge.
And I tend to feel so down even over small matters nowadays.
I know it sucks.
Maybe because I feel that I've been through so much till it hurts so badly now.
Family, Boyfriend, Friends, School and any other personal stuffs in my life.

Even about friends...

"The only friend who stays with me till now is you, Lina."
- My close friend.

I'm touched by those words. It's true. People come and go and not many will stay with you.

And about THAT, I don't wanna make a fuss out of it.

The last line of my previous entry says it all.

Stress

2009-04-26T01:09:00.000-07:00

I'm very stress about school. Too many things to do and to think about. Only one more week left but it's as though I still have one more year to this coming two months of holiday. I know it's gonna be a hard journey. That's why I'm so stress.

Not only that. After what happened in school, I had a hard time too at home due to some issues. I still remember the next day. When my mom cried, I cried too. I guess whatever she went through that time is almost like what I've experienced before. But at the same time, the anger for both parties is there. One doesn't really work hard while the other is too tough to be a 'teacher' for that person.

Now I'm too stress. I have so much work to do but I don't know where to start. That creates another problem. I think I'm more mentally than physically tired.

And I miss my boyfriend so much. :'(

Love you.

2009-04-23T00:00:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday, My Love. :)

Bad day.

2009-04-21T19:48:00.000-07:00

What a day.

I sprained my ankle very badly and also PMS-ing
= Pain in the ankle and also the stomach.
I don't have a good time in school just now as well.

Now I'm having a hard time walking.

Urgh! I hate today.

Tak nak

2009-04-18T23:59:00.000-07:00

"If you blog about it, you owe me watching one horror movie together in the cinema."
"Tak nak."
"Ala.. Skali je."
"Tak nak. Takde duit."
"Ok I blanje."
"Tak nak. You pon takde duit." (Ni part tipu sey. Haha..)
"Ape je. Ok I blanje popcorn."
"Tak nak."
"I blanje nachos."
"Tak nak."
"K k.. I belikan you air yang paling besar skali."
"Tak nak.. Tak nak.. Tak nak."

Hiding behind. :P
So cute.

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FYI, I'm now having problems with my 'enter', 'backspace' and 'delete' buttons on my laptop keyboard. I had quite a hard time trying my very best to press these 3 buttons very hard in order for them to work. It's very time consuming.

Tukar laptop baru lah! Haha.. Malu lah.

I'll update more once I have the time. I'm filled with tons of school work to do and as for now, I need some sleep. ZzZzZz...

FiqLin

2009-04-15T23:51:00.000-07:00

Raffles. Keppel Bay.
Peaceful moments with you. :)

With much love. <3

Dinner at Sakura. :)

2009-04-12T23:58:00.000-07:00

Dinner at Sakura, Downtown East, with my family was awesome. :)

There's variety of food and everything was mouth-filling. From the side dishes to the main dishes to desserts, thumbs up for them. Having about 3 hours of time to eat, we tried lots of them and we got too bloated after a while.

Also, me and my nieces managed to walk around Downtown East during our short 'interval'. Haha.. The shops there are just alright. Not much that attracts my attention though but I did buy myself 3 pink bracelets. :)

We started off at 6pm and left that place at abt 9pm. Imagine.. 3 hours of foooooodddd. :D We were all stoning inside the bus on our way home due to feeling bloated, except for the lil nephew, who was so hyper active from the start till the end. Haha..

Thanks for the treat, Ayah. :)

I totally had fun with my family today. :)

Tedious.

2009-04-09T23:59:00.000-07:00

A friend of mine is experiencing what I've experienced before and that makes her wanna quit. After talking to her, I suddenly recall back about the past.

I wonder, when can we feel safe and secure in an environment where we wanna be. Hyprocracy. Honestly, I won't ever forget that 'wonderful' moments. Furthermore with not much support, it just adds up to the burden that I've been through.

And those pains in the heart won't ever fade that easily too.

After all these while, I think I somehow got the hang of it. I realized that I've been going through more sufferings and pain than joy in that journey. I guess it's just me of not knowing how to handle it well. I never asked for all these. No one asked for all these. And I've learnt to stand up for myself.

I don't wanna unreasonable pain. It will only turned me into a very different person. More harsh than ever.. Someone whom I don't wanna be.

Hopefully, it will also turned me into a good way.

If only I could change my heart into a new, pure, one.

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I'm down with fever and flu! Urgh!
And that made me stay at home, not going to school during the day. I was at home with my lil nephew, who is always the one making me and my family's day at home. Ada dia, kecoh. Takde dia, sunyi plak. Haha.. The Hungry Ghost. He's a very big eater, I tell you. Makan confirm susah nk stop nya..

But I did manage to go to school at 8pm to watch the BA Show with Aiman, Farah Goh, Nureen, Marvel, Ivan and Kevin.
The show was alright. Just two actress saying and acting out their monologues.

Then we had cheeseeeeeee friessssssss for dinner. My all time favourite. Hehe.. :)

Bf is sleeping soundly now after having a night of not sleeping at all and a whole day of working. Have a very goodnight sleep, baby. Love you. :)

As for me, since tomorrow is a public holiday (Good Friday), I managed to keep myself awake till 2am tonight just to listen to Misteri Jam 12. Hehehe.. I've been stoning for the past few nights while listening to it, man. I feel so tired and sleepy.

I'm so worried about my school presentation this coming Tuesday and also my other school work. Tedious.

Hurray! :D

2009-04-08T23:59:00.000-07:00

I only had one class today (Acting) coz Singing class is cancelled. Can't believe the play that my group is doing can be so bizzare. :)

Met Bf at bugis after school. He's with Faiz, Sani, and Hamdan and I met up with Shasha, Lily and Ilah too. Great to know the three of you lovely babes after getting to know each other through blogs. Hehe.. After a while, Liana, Ima and Khairul joined us too. :)

It was a very great outing. Seriously, I had so much fun. :)

Nice meeting you guys. Hope to have an outing again like this soon.

Woohoo! :D

I know that sometimes time doesn't allow us to be there for each other always.
But as long as we know that we are one, I'm already so glad.
Love you.
*Hugs and Kisses*
:)

Your smile. :)

2009-04-05T23:47:00.000-07:00

Like finally, most of my school work are done.

Speech & Text - Did the graph and another-story-of-the-monologue thingy already. So happy! :)
Stage Model Making - Did the research for the sketches but not much sketches has been done yet. So it's considered as halfway done. But I guess I could sketch more in class tomorrow.
Theatre Costume - Did Tolis's work but not Hella's work yet. :(
Basic Playwriting - Ni lagi best. Haven't even think about anything yet for my upcoming Solo Flight equals to I can't write down the storyline on a piece of paper. :(

I still haven't read up The Glass Menagerie but I have an idea on how to present it. Hmm..

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You don't have to wait till Tuesday, baby. :)

We could be together watching the beautiful scenery infront of us.
It doesn't have to be your slightest touch.
Your smile already cheers me up.
Infact, you being by my side is such a nice gesture. :)

Selamat Pengantin Baru and Suzuki Swift. :)

2009-04-04T23:40:00.000-07:00

Congrats to my Malay Drama lecturer, Zizi and her beloved husband, Izmir. May both of you have a wonderful time together in your new life. Semoga berkekalan. :)

So it was full attendance. Haha.. All the eight of us went to her wedding and I think it's a quite special one compared to the usual malay weddings. We are all happy for her. =)

But what pissed me off was.. I forgot to bring her gift!

I went out of my house earlier than I should coz I was wearing very high heels, which means I had to take more time to walk all the way to the mrt station from my house. And that made me totally forget about the gift. I was already about to board the mrt when I realized about it. Where got time to patah balik rumah, you tell me?

That means I have to give it to her in school on monday then.

Walau ape2 pon,
Selamat Pengantin Baru! :)

My feet hurt pretty bad due to that very high heels. I had a hard time going back home. Fortunately, I bumped into my mom on the way back home when I just reached Serangoon Mrt and I then decided to follow her along to somewhere with my dad too. Woohoo.. But not with those high heels, man! The lucky thing was that she gave me money to take a cab back to my house so that I won't need to walk back home from the mrt station. Hehe..

But there's another thing that pissed me off. The uncle drove the wrong way. -.- He was supposed to go straight but he ended up turning left instead. The journey became longer than usual sey when it was actually supposed to be just about 5 mins? So taxi fare pon mahal sket ah.. And my mom kept calling me non-stop, asking me when will I be able to reach home.

Finally, when I reached home, I quickly took off my baju kebaya and just wear the long sleeve shirt that's inside. I know that I'm late so I just took off my ez-link card and my key from my wallet and placed them in my pocket. I purposely left my wallet at home and not bringing any money with me, which is not a good idea la. Not to forget, my handphone too.

I actually have 2 ez-link cards. One is the new one, the other one is the old one. I should be taking the old one coz I haven't transfer the credits inside to the new one. But instead, I took the new ez-link card (no credits inside) without even realizing it and left home. I didn't even bring a single cent with me.

My purpose for going back home is to just change my heels to slippers but I ended up doing lots of stuffs. -.-

Then i quickly walked all the way to the bustop and the bus arrived as soon as I reached there. Cool huh.. I was happy at first till I boarded the bus and tapped my ez-link card which cudn't work at all. Coz why? Coz there's no credits in it. I just realized that I've taken the wrong ez-link card with me. Woah.. Paisey sey.. Dah lah tgh takde duit langsong with me that time. So I quickly left the bus and walked back home without turning back.

I was seriously pissed off ah. I called my mom and told her that I won't be following. That's it.

As i reached home, my mom called me again and said that she and my dad will wait for me. This time I was like already half-hearted to follow them but ouh well, I went to meet them anyway. Hehe..

Luckily everything went well after that. :)

I want my dream car, Suzuki Swift! Infact, my whole family love this car. Hehe.. InsyaAllah.. =)

I'm so stress right now thinking about school work.
Theatre costume(Sketches and Character Plot)
Stage Model Making (Sketches and Research)
Speech & Text (Graph and Own Story)
Basic Playwriting (Storyline for Solo Flight)
English Drama History (Read a whole play and think how to present it creatively)

Urgh.. So many things to do yet so little time.

And I just woke up from my sleep now but I know it's still not enough. :(

Btw, sorry guys coz I cudn't come for your graduation show tonight. I had so much work to do today. Give your very best on every show k. :)

Missing you right now.

Love and Vogue. :)

2009-04-03T23:59:00.000-07:00

Your presence is a total blessing.

We've known each other for quite long but who would expect us to be like now?
After so long to get to know the truth...

I'm missing you right now.

I'm in love. :)

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Vogue!

Congrats to my seniors upon ur graduation show tonight. You guys still have 3 more nights to go. Keep on rocking, lovelies! I'm sure you can do it. :-D

And this is my first time ever being home so late but I'm glad that everyone's being understanding. Hehe..

School is quite hectic. Now i suddenly realized that I've tons of homeworks to be done. I have the character plot for theatre costume class, the sketches for stage model making class, the graph and story for speech & text's class, a storyline of my solo flight for basic playwriting class, preparing for acting technique's assessment as well as my upcoming english drama historty presentation, which means I have to read the Glass Menagerie play very soon and think of how to present it creatively.

I have a wedding to attend tmrw and also to help out in the painting for the sets on sunday. It's gonna be a very busy weekend.

As for now, I'm trying to relieve my stress as much as possible and I'm glad that I could do so nowadays.

Let's just think about the bright side of life and things will be easier. :)

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I've just finished webcaming.
It's one of the things that makes it more wonderful after a long beautiful day just now. :)

raffles

2009-03-29T23:59:00.000-07:00

To you, thanks for making my day. :)

Pissed

2009-03-27T23:59:00.000-07:00

I know I have been closing down my blog for a few weeks but I've decided to have it back again.

I have a lot to rant. My feelings. Emotions. Family. School. Friends. Hmm.. Relationship?

If only those aren't so personal to me.

I still can't forget my pasts. I'm not gonna mention them coz only God knows how painful it is for me to bear with everything right now.

Because of what happened in the pasts, I became meaner than ever. I became bad-tempered, always feeling sad and so down about everything. Though how positive it is, it doesn't seem to make any sense to me.

I've always been in a moody state nowadays. Every single day and night, there will be at least one moment whereby I'll suddenly feel so sad and therefore, I'll sit at one corner alone. If I didn't cry, that's already good enough.

I've been keeping apart from people too. I don't wanna bond or I don't feel like bonding with people so much right now. But I'm very gladful to have hangout sessions after school and during the weekends with the lovable ones although I sometimes, still have the feelings of wanting to be alone.

My previous friends.. where are they? I'm the one who's been drifting apart from them first. And now.. No more smses. No more chats. No more hangouts with them. I'm sorry coz I just need some space.

I don't feel a sense of belonging at almost anywhere I am. Irritated. That's what I've always been feeling.

There's no respect. Yes.. No respect.

I tend to have the urge of giving up. About school. About everything. I've always been skipping classes, not doing homeworks and assignments, purposely delaying them although I know that I'm now taking a diploma which is definitely not the same way as in primary or secondary school.

About my attire. That's too personal for me to say it out. About the stuffs that relates to my attire which could create big sins.. That's worst.

Sometimes, I want to be a guy rather than a girl. Coz being a girl is a sore. Sometimes I feel, why can't guys do those simplest thing in order for us girls to call them gentlemen or even just men, which is already good enough. Seriously, aku rasa aku jadi lelaki lagi baik. There's no use being a girl if I'm always being stepped on the head by the opposite sex. There's no use being so girlish and so nice and sweet. Just let me be rough and not feminine.

I've been keeping countless of stuffs in my heart till it can drive me nuts. Not only stuffs about me, but also about others. And till now, I'm still not sure if I've let all of them out. Infact, I don't know how to let them out coz it's been buried deeply for so long till it hurts.

I feel so disappointed about the sudden change in myself. I wanted and will try my best to be as before but nowadays, I can't help it but to be way different than I am from last time. That makes me become nasty without me realizing it and also always been keeping quiet and not so active and cheerful as before. Damn it. Thanks ah eh to those people.

There's definitely lots more for me to say. It's gonna be a very long journey before I reached the last fullstop.

Mental abusing and sometimes, physical abusing.

I feel so fcuked up.

Hell

2009-03-13T23:59:00.000-07:00

It's like hell.

I'm not updating my blog that much till I'm okay.

Thanks for being there for me all these while, friend. I really treasure you so much.

Jahanam

2009-03-10T23:18:00.000-07:00

Aku semakin kurang ajar.
Aku semakin jahat.
Aku semakin rosak.

Sejak aku join Theatre, aku berubah.
Berubah menjadi seorang yang lebih tak berguna.

Aku mula buka tudung.
Orang ke mana, tudung ke mana.

Aku mula banyak memaki.
Maki hamun sana, maki hamun sini.

Aku banyak kenal dengan lelaki.
Sampaikan dorang tipu aku pun, aku tak tahu.

Aku menjadi semakin marah.
Perasaan dendam semakin membara dalam diri aku ni.

Aku dah tak tahu mana baik, mana buruk.
Yang aku tahu cuma nak ikut sedap hati aku je.

Aku banyak mengecewakan perasaan ibu bapa aku.
Yang selama ini tak pernah suka dengan minat aku terhadap arts.

Tapi apa gunanya kalau ada minat pun.
Kerana minat ini lah yang membuat aku menjadi seorang yang lebih rosak.
Apa gunanya ada minat kalau asyik membuat aku nangis je.

Aku benci diri aku sekarang.
Kerana perubahan aku ni lah yang membuat aku selalu sedih.
Yang membuat aku selalu marah.
Semakin geram.
Semakin membenci.

Kadang-kadang, aku mahu berhenti sekolah!

Pergi jahanam ngan ni semua!

Disappointed

2009-03-09T23:24:00.000-07:00

"I fell in love with a girl."

The Not-making-sense survey ever.

2009-03-09T22:47:00.000-07:00

1. Put Your I-Tunes, Windows Media Player, Etc. On Shuffle.
2. For Each Question, Press The Next Button To Get Your Answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Have fun! :)

>IF SOMEONE SAYS ‘ARE YOU OKAY’ YOU SAY?
- Superhuman by Chris Brown feat. Keri Hilson
Gila.

>HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
- I Turn To You by Christina Aguilera
Takde kena mengena terus.

>WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
-What You Got by Colby O Donis feat. Akon
Yeah.. What have you got to make me like you.

>HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
-Crush by David Archeleta
Hmm.. Izzit? No, I guess.

>WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?
- Impianku by Didicazli feat. Sleeq
Ouh yeah.. The impians in my life. Like real..

>WHAT’S YOUR MOTTO?
- Don't Wanna Miss A Thing by Aerosmith
Haha.. Biar betul.

>WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
- Hero by Mariah Carey
Woah.. So strong huh?

>WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
- How Do I Live - Leann Rimes
Haha.. Merepek siol.

>WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
- Just Dance by Lady Gaga feat Colby O Donis
Yeah, baby! =D

>WHAT IS 2 + 2?
- Kasih Mengapa by Rauzan and The Urban Sensation feat Roze
Hahaha.. Fail Maths aku.

>WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
- End Of The Line by Honeyz
Siak je.. Jauhkan sey.

>WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
- Monte Carlo by Phyne Ballerz
Aiyoo..

>WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
- Someday We'll Know by Mandy Moore and Jon Foreman
Yes yes. You'll know it someday. :)

>WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
- With You by Chris Brown
With you, with you, with you, with you, with youuuu...

>WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
- Dancing Queen by Abba
Haha. Dancing Queen ke pe?

>WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
- Belly Dancer by Akon
HAHAHA! Biar betol?!

>WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
- Right Na Na Na by Akon feat. Kat Deluna
Takde link langsung.

>WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
- Akulah Kekasihmu by I forgot who. Sorry leh..
Hmm.. Iyelah..

>YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
- Apologize by Timbaland feat. One Republic
Haha.. Takut nak minta maaf nampak..

>WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
- Bleeding Love by Leona Lewis
Eh tak nak siol.

>WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
- Bring Me Back To Live by Evanescence
Haha.. Macam dah mati je.

>WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
- Can You Feel The Love Tonight by Elton John
Ouh I can't, baby.

Haha! Nonsense but fun.

Gadgets

2009-03-08T22:55:00.000-07:00

My father maybe.. Mayyyyybee only.. has to go to India to work for at least 2 years???
Which means my mom has to follow him. Which also means that me and my bro have to tag along.

Well, I don't know if this is a good thing but..
I'm not gonna follow! I don't even want to. I rather stay in Singapore.

And then he goes on saying,

"Abeh kalau nur tak nak ikot, camne ayah nk pegi?!"

Alahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! Tak yah pegi ah. Keje kat Singapore pon ok per..

Luckily it's just a maybe thing. Hopefully my whole family won't have to go to India. -.-

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Misteri Jam 12 has been something that I always listen to with my father almost every night on weekdays (except for when he's working night shift). Tak berani aku dgr2 sorang2 or just with my mom. Ya know why? Coz both of us penakut nak mampos. -_-

Hmm.. I suddenly has the urge to write to KC what I experienced before. You know.. the school and the cemetery thing in my so called 'dream'. Hehe.. Will do soon if I have the time la..

Btw, I was browsing through the net about smartphones when I found this.

Woohoo! A pink smartphone. :) :) :)

But I don't know what model is this and I think it's not sold in Singapore. So nvm..

I continued browsing and I found this...

Nokia N97

Which actually attracts me aaaa looootttt! Woohoo... I want this phone! :DDDDD

OR...

This phone: Nokia E71

It's also a phone that I like coz it's like a computer. I love those kind of phones. :) And it comes in 3 different colours. Silver, Black or Red. I like the silver one. :)

Most of my friends are using this phone. I find it nice. :)

OR THISSSSSS!!!

Sony Ericsson Idou! I loveeeeee this! :)

But wait long long lah ah. Coz now I don't have the freaking money to even buy anything. :(

But guess what?

I finally saved 10 bucks for this whole week! :) :) :)
Which is a very surprising thing for me coz I'm always bankrupt nak mampos after every week. -_-

Hmm.. Talking about gadgets, my laptop should already be in hospital now or should i say, since months ago.

Let me show you why.

1. The colours on some parts of the keyboard are fading like nobody's business.

and this one's the best.

The keyboard and the monitor screen can almost be disconnected from one another very soon.

Ouh this one laaaagi best.

When I close the laptop, this part is how it looks like. Use scotchtapes somemore.

Then, the sides of the monitor screen are actually so called divided or broke into two but because of the scotchtapes, it looks.. hmm.. ok lah. But who the hell use a bloody scotchtape to actually fix a broken laptop sak?

This one is the other side of my laptop, which also looks freakingly the same as the one above.

Kesian laptop aku.

Hey but it still works, okay. At least it can still be turned on as per normal. I'm still able to use it for surfing the net or do my work with it without having much problems. :)

But to bring it out of my house, of course very embarassing la haa..

Even my dad told me before,

"Eh aku nak hantar laptop kau gi repair pon aku malu."

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Anyway, it's good that I stayed at home this weekend. I managed to get more and more rest but I still feel tired now. Sigh.. So weak.

I only have class at 5pm - 7pm tmrw. Hmm.. Tutorial weeks are not so bad afterall.

Singapore Gila

2009-03-07T21:53:00.000-08:00

I'm now in the middle of watching Art Of The Devil 2 and I've watched Art Of The Devil before too. But OMG.. These movies are totally very gore. I don't mind gore most of the times but there are still some parts in these movies that seem very crazily gore-ly freakingly disgusting and horrible and terrible and whateverrr... It's just so gross.

Imagine nails and hooks poking out from your bodies and blood streaming everywhere. Woah.. If only it happens in real life. But do all these happen in real life? If it is, I don't know how that person can bear the pain.

But the way those bruises and gore parts are made in this movie was super great, I tell you. I still remember what my Make Up Lecturer said before: If it looks painful to you, that means you are very good in creating the bruises.

Haha.. Cool. :)

I still have yet to finish watching Art Of The Devil 2.

Well, I guess I'm gonna be very free this weekend and I'll be using the time to have much rest. Usually I'll be with Aiman and Rosemary or either one of them but somehow I won't be able to contact Aiman till Monday due to something. But anyway, both of them are working and busy with their own stuffs too during this weekends. So even if I get to contact them, I don't think we are able to hangout. Hmm..

OR..

Me, Aiman and sometimes, the rest of our schoolmates, will be busy and stressing ourselves in doing the Stage Model Making stuffs. Luckily now it's Hella who teaches us. Not to take advantage of her but I find it less stressful and more fun in her class. That time we were asked to make a pokok. Hehe.. And she provided the materials for us. Cool. Coz I thought I would need to fork out more money again for new materials. I'm broke.

Urgh.. I'm always broke la.

Fortunately also, there's no Stage Model Making class this coming Monday coz it's the Tutorial Week, man.

So here I am at home, freely doing my own stuffs. I've yet to finish up some of my school work too.

Acting Technique Journal. Damn.. I didn't update myself about his lessons. I'm so gonna have a hard time remembering what he taught us for the past few weeks. Lessons dia pon ade yang aku skip. Shit man.. Linaaaa Lina..

And I just remembered about my upcoming Malay Drama Presentation. Which one should I do on. Cindai or Peran? And I still haven't even come up with the topic that I wanna present on.

So there goes 2 assignments to be done. There's one more upcoming presentation for me. English Drama History Presentation. I guess I should go to the library A.S.A.P to borrow the Glass Menagerie's book or at least read the summary on the internet for this presentation. And also to think about how creative I'm gonna present it later on. Fortu! Let's get to work soon. :)

Ouh well.. 3 assignments for now. Ouh ya.. I need to find a Shakespeare Monologue for Speech & Text Class too. I did found one last time but I think I've misplaced it. -_-

Hmm.. How about my boots and pants? Where to get them? :(

Btw people, I've found this on the internet.

Our current MRT Map in Singapore.

AND...

The new MRT Map in Singapore.

Kalau macam ni, orang semua tak payah naik kereta sey. Save duit minyak.
But huh.. I think the more the Mrt Stations, the longer the journey is. Gobi told me before too that he needs to wait longer than usual for the MRT to come for him to go to school. Crazy.

Wait. There's one more.

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Our current Bus stops in Singapore.

AND...

The future Bus Stops in Singapore.

Takde panjang lagi ke?

Hohoho.. I think in our future future future future generation, the buses will be 3 times longer than the normal ones now.

But yeah.. Of course there's also the advantages la for all these. Modern eh Singapore sekarang.

Mandarin Drama Graduation Show

2009-03-06T23:59:00.000-08:00

I was getting ready and rushing off to go to school for Emcee Arts and Skills Class today but it was cancelled last minute. Luckliy I'm not out of my house yet. Or worst still, in the bus.

Actually the class is not confirmed yet at first. But then it was cancelled. So.. Hehe.. Aku peh happy takde class. Coz I can relax more before my Acting Class which starts later on.

Talking about Acting Class, I have to work more. Yes. More!

Let me list down my bad points.

1. I'm not so into character.
2. I'm not so open up.
3. My energy level is sometimes on and sometimes off.

And yang paling sedih sekali, I'm not connected to my dialogues. :(

Hehe.. Abeh sedih eh.

Well, I really need to work on all those more. At least now I know what's my weakest points. :)

Who says acting is that easy? :)

Btw, met up with the usual ones after school and went to watch the Mandarin Drama Graduation Show.

Ouhhhh.. I love the sets and lightings. :)
The acting was not bad too.

And guess what? This is my first time understanding a Mandarin Play by just watching it. I thought I wudn't understand it coz I know sepatah haram pon aku takkan paham. But no mannnnn.. Haha.. Also thanks to Deborah and Gobi for explaning some of the parts to me. :)

The play ended at about 10pm. Deborah went home while me, Aiman and Gobi went to sit at Al-Jilani and waited for Gobi's friend to come. And I got to know that she lives nearby me. Same estate somemore. :)

After a while, home sweet home.

And to Aiman, hope you don't feel too upset. I'm sorry coz I can't help you much in this matter. Take care, okay, during the weekends! :)

Gym

2009-03-05T23:59:00.000-08:00

After so long of not working out in the gym, i finally got the chance to do so tonite after school. And it's good to have Aiman as a companion. Thanks, pal. :)

For the past few days, I've been quite busy with school although tutorial weeks have just started. Repertoire Scenes are coming in two weeks time, just after the other group's and so the class has been having more rehearsals.

Costumes for the scenes have been chosen today but I'm worried about my pants and boots. Where can I get boots?

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And it's also been quite a while since I last update my blog daily. I've been feeling very busy and tired right now. I guess I'll only blog during the weekends, that is if I'm quite free to do so. As for now, life's been good nowadays. Frankly speaking, I feel much easy right now and I don't need to worry much anymore. I'm really taking a good break.

Having Aiman and other lovely people with me after school is just good enough for me. Doing school work together, having dinner, listening to music, gymming, shopping and others. :)

And I miss Aiman and Rosemary. As in the three of us. (Although I've been meeting Aiman for almost everyday. LOL..)

Although sometimes the words are true, I try not to go into it. This can't be fast and I'll try to stop dreaming about it. I'll try coz I can't guarantee.

Time for myself.

2009-02-28T16:36:00.000-08:00

I've not been uploading trillions of photos nowadays. So here it goes... :)

Had dinner at Pastamania with Aiman and Rosemary and then off to esplanade to chill. :)

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Sending Atok and Aunty off at the Airport with my beloved family, Aiman and Rosemary. :)

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Cuzin Is's Birthday cum BBQ at Kak Yanny's Place with my beloved family. :)

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Had dinner with Aiman and Gobi at Al-Jilani after school. :)

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Playing around in Acting Class with E-van, Celine and and SM, Farhana while it's not our scenes. :)

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Did the towers with Aiman, Gobi, Trudy and Deborah after school. :)

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Played Uno game and Heart Attack with Aiman, Rosemary, Gobi, Deborah, Trudy and Ivan. :)

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Walking around Esplanade with Aiman, Trudy and Gobi. :)

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The moments in school. :)

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Us in Malay Drama Class. :)

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Kae's 19th Birthday at Pizza Hut. :)

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Went to Fortu's house with Aiman at Peace Centre. :)

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Emcee Arts & Skills Class. :)

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And recently, had dinner with Aiman, Gobi, Deborah and Trudy at Hawa Restaurant and also desserts at J.Co. :)

Now finally, it's the weekends. I would like to have time for myself by resting at home and to finish up some of my school work that has to be done.

Next week is already the starting of Tutorial Weeks. It should be a break for the students but we will still have make-up classes going on and Acting Class is a definite one as our Repertoire Scenes are coming up soon.

I'm now in the middle of watching The Art of Devil on Youtube. I've decided to watch it after what Aiman told me about it yesterday.

And also about his dream recently. Haha.. I can't believe it, man. :P

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Dreams are always playing around in our sleep.

Some are really so weird and has got nothing to do with us.
Like for example, I dreamt of being in a house but the situation in that house is like spinning round and round and everything in it looks kinda upside down.

-.-

Weird.

Sometimes, when we are close to some people, we tend to dream abt him or her. It may be a nice dream or a bad one. Sometimes, the storyline in that dream can be very bizzare too.
Just like Aiman's dream. Haha..

I did experienced dreams before that can somehow relates me to the 'future'.

For example, if I quarrel with someone, I'll either dream something nice or bad about that person when I go to sleep later.
But the point is..
If it's a nice dream, that means my friendship with him/her will be back to normal again.
But if it's the other way round, then luck is just not on my side. Things will either stay the same or become worst later on.
And yes.. It did happen before.

That is only if I'm lucky to get those dreams.

The best thing is that I'll smile if it's a good dream. Coz I know there is a greater possibily that things will get better on that particular day. :)

About dreaming the bad ones, I don't wanna talk about it.

Hmm..
I wonder..

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Last but not least,

Happy Birthday, Siti! :)

Guesstures.

2009-02-24T23:14:00.000-08:00

Having the time to play board games with Aiman, Gobi and Trudy after school was so fun. If only I captured some photos at that moment. Surprisingly, I didn't think of snapping any photos during that time. Hehe..

And I think that Guesstures's quite a good game for theatre students. :)

Anyway, about school for today.
English Drama History was alright by listening to another presentation's being done. Rosy and Mel, your Looney Tunes Characters are so cute. :)

I find that Basic Playwriting class has becoming more interesting and fun recently. More new theatre games and acting exercises has been introduced to the class. I just had fun. :)

The only bad thing about today was I skipped Body & Movement's class. Mentang2 takde Speech & Text class before it, naik lemak aku tak nak bangun pagi2. Hehe..

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Hey.. I miss Keppel Bay. :(
I really miss those times coz it's just so nice to think about.

School's been keeping me busy. Somehow, to have the Keppel Bay moments back maybe will not be during this period of time.

But hopefully soon.. :)

Good Friendship

2009-02-23T23:59:00.000-08:00

It's not easy to maintain a good and long-lasting friendship. When one's in the wrong, the other will try to give advice. It's up to you whether you'll accept it or not.

It's also hard to change someone to be a better person. You must help yourself in this kind of matter. As friends, we could only help by telling you. No more than that coz we are not you. We are not yourself.

Friendship usually starts with very sweet moments and then the bitter ones slowly comes along. That's when good friends go through the ups and downs together.

And letting go is not an easy thing to go through too. That's when these good friends could not help it but to recall those sweet bitter memories that they've been through together all these while.

But if it ends, there's no point regretting, isn't it?

Nothing last forever in this world but still when it comes to friendship, we could save it by trying to compromise and understand each other.

Just remember that.

Life is tough. Everything's not as easy as A B C.

Tired

2009-02-22T23:40:00.000-08:00

My weekends aren't quite good.

Being very tired and sleepy, I still need to wake up as early as 6.30am in the morning yesterday coz I had a Final Theory Practice class for one hour before my Final Theory Test at 11.45am later on.
Seriously, I felt so sleepy and cudn't really wake up that morning. All i had to do was to force myself. If I were to skip that practice, I'll definitely panic while taking my FTT later on.

It's just an hour of practice. So from 9.15am to 11.45am, what did I do? I stayed at SSDC's canteen and did the two platforms for Stage Model Making class this monday. Fortunately, I managed to get it done within that two hours+ coz I thought I would need more time for it. My cardboard is so thick that I had a hard time cutting the shapes out and I suck at measurements as well. My mom accompanied me there. Thank God.. So I won't feel that bored. However, I somehow messed up the table that I used at SSDC's canteen. Hehe..

I'm relieved after getting those platforms done. But one more thing.. My Upcoming Final Theory Test.
Time check: 11.30am
Time of Test: 11.45am

I'm left with only 15 more mins left. After going to the toilet and having a chat with my mom, it's already about time for me to sit for the test. Frankly speaking, I was not prepared for it and it's my first time taking it.

I finally sat for the test. The crazy thing was.. after I answered all the 50 questions, I looked through all of them back to actually count how many questions have i answered unsurely. Unfortunately, there's six of them, when you actually have to have maximum five wrong answers in order to pass the test. But when I pressed the 'Yes' button in order to end the test, the word 'PASSED' appeared.

YESSA! I passed my Final Theory Test! :DDDDDDDD

Alhamdullilah.. That just makes my day. :)

Other than that, I'm feeling so stress!

Met Aiman later on to do our Stage Model Making stuffs and also Theatre Costume together at school. We reached school at about 6pm+ but..
I had to watch Importance of Being Earnest and I had to leave school at 7pm+ to meet up with Farah before we went for the play. Which means both of us only have like less than one hour to do the school work?

I'm sorry.

Talking about the play, it was good and hilarious. I cudn't understand it at first but when it goes on, I find it easier to understand and fun to be watched. :)

But I somehow ended my day quite badly. :(

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As for today, my family had a kenduri arwah for my atuk sedara. It's been 1 year that he's gone. Al-Fatihah untuknya.

The weather didn't seem so good today coz it's been raining cats and dogs. I've yet to complete my towers too and I know it'll took me quite a while to do it. The cutting of wood, measuring and pasting them together. Oh gosh. Someone please help me for a moment about this coz I just feel so damn tired nowadays. Luckily, it's done now.

I really felt so dead beat but I don't really know why. Maybe coz I'm weak. Infact, I'm getting weaker and weaker each day. My eyes seriously asked to be closed earlier any moment tonite and get myself into lalaland.

I need more rest.

Life

2009-02-19T23:59:00.000-08:00

It's been a while since I last blogged.

Being so busy with many different stuffs, I just don't get that much rest now. However, life's been pretty good, though there's so still so much stress going on.

School

There's up and there's down.

Stage Model Making
Honestly, I'm not so looking forward to this class. There's measurements. Scales. Readings. Those are things that I'm weak at. Furthermore, with the use of so much money for the materials, it just don't make me feel better. I'm pretty much broke after that.

Theatre Costume
At least I don't have to spend so much yet for this class. All I need to do was to do some research, cut and paste photos onto a sketch book, describe and write my thoughts about it and also do some sketches. Sketching costumes can be fun.

Acting
I was given a small role due to the chicken pox that I had earlier on, which leads to myself not being able to go to school and attending acting classes. So basically, I only got to rehearse my scene twice since the 1st week of school. I spent my time either going through my lines outside the class while the other scenes and plays are being rehearsed or I went off and do some other stuffs after taking the attendance.

Speech & Text
Everything goes quite well. Though I'm the weakest in the group, I still have fun in this lesson. All i have to do was to improve more and more by practising my speech. I still have difficulties in pronouncing some simple words properly and that's very sad. And with the help of Claire's critism, it makes me work harder.

Body & Movements
Dancing is alright. This time round, the pace is fast. Sometimes I couldn't catch up that easily. The changing of partners makes me feel confuse too and that's when I don't know how to do the dance together as a class. I hate that kind of situation. I somehow ruin the whole dance. But it's better nowadays in this class. The steps can be quite fun and interesting.

English Drama History
Having to read a play every week was.. alright, i guess. But me myself.. By reading just the synopsis or summary of the play on the internet makes me fail the short quizzes every week. The class was just average to me.

Basic Playwriting
It started off pretty boring but I find that it becomes better after that. I still can't forget the mermaid story. This module could help me in my upcoming Solo Flight when I get promoted to Year 3 next term. Recently, I made myself feeling so high in one of the assignments. :p

Singing
Duets for this term. So far, everything's pretty normal by having those usual voice warm ups before we start to sing our songs. We are also divided into the 'Singer's Group' and the 'Just Singer's Group'.

Malay Drama
It was better now. We are still working on Malay Classical Plays but I find it more fun and interesting than before. We did script reading and also a short presentation on what we wanna talk about the play.

Acting Technique
Lebarn Technique. (Sorry for the unsure of spelling. Hehe..) This class seems like another body movements class but it's more to those relaxing and smooth movements. Sometimes, we do some kind of a dance too, which I find it great and fun to do. I learnt different things on our body movements in this class.

Emcee Arts & Skills
We are doing a radio play and I was appointed as a writer. All I have to do was to write the script with the other two writers to make a whole story. We then recorded our voices, listened to it again and try to edit here and there. All of us has a part to play. Some get to be the director, producer, writer and so on.

So.. What can I say about school? Everything seems okay. I did experience some stress about the school works. I have 2 presentations coming - English Drama History and also Malay Drama. Stage Model Making and Theatre Costumes need quite a lot to be done too.

And I've been coming back home very late at night almost every single day due to hanging out with classmates and schoolmates, either doing our work together or just to relieve stress. School can be quite stress but I'll always have fun after school.

The Loves.
Having to meet Aiman almost everyday and going through things together is great, whether it's about school or outside life. I won't ever forget those moments of us. :)
And it's also great meeting the other buddy, Rosemary, too almost everyday, although she's quite busy nowadays with some of her other stuffs. With her, there's always gonna be the pinching of cheeks or fats here and there. Hehe.. :)
Thanks for being great friends, guys. :)
Being busy with our different schedules, the three of us still usually have meet ups after school or during the weekends to spend some leisure time together.
Nowadays, some of the Year 3s (Aiman's classmates) joined in too, which makes the gathering seems more fun and lively.
I've talked to some of the Year 1s too. Farhana's one of them who'll always be a friendly and bubbly person to me.

It's great to have you guys.
:)

I actually feel so much more happier now.

In the past, being someone who'll get to know guys and getting into a relationship very fast, I know that's very wrong. No matter how serious I am, if the other partner isn't, the relationship still won't work.

I then begin to realize all those mistakes that I've made. These relationships, heartbreaks, hurts, tears of sorrow, crys.. I could have avoid it in the first place by not getting involve with love that easily. I could have control my feelings and not to fall into those guys's traps. If I could erase all those moments, I definitely will.

Now, I'll stand by myself. I know I don't need a guy being so special to me in order to have a happy life. It's not wrong at all to be single. Especially when you are still young and not so mature in this matter.

I rather concentrate on what's more important in my life right now. I'm just so happy having to see myself staying back after school, doing school stuffs rather than spending my time doing those unnecessary things. I'm even happier to see my parents smiling by not breaking their hearts.

I've realized one very important thing too.

A guy who breaks my hearts actually means that I broke my parent's hearts too. Coz when I cried just because of *&%#$^%^@ guys like my ex-boyfriends, my parents are feeling the hurt in me too.
Imagine seeing your own child being mentally abused by her own boyfriend who in the first place should not be a boyfriend to her at all.

Seeing one of my very close friend's life makes me realized all these.
His way of standing by himself, now not that important enough to have someone special in his life. Basically, his way of controlling the 'gatal love' feeling.

Thanks a million, Aiman. :)
I really don't know how to describe the way you make realize all these.

Honestly, I feel nice and much more easier without them. I'm now even keeping myself a distance from some other people. I rather be alone and stay close to only a few people. Many apologies for staying apart from some of you. I just feel that I need some time for myself now.

As for now, I just want some time to ease my mind more.
I really miss peaceful places like the beach, having to just sit down and relieve some stress.
Keppel Bay is definitely a place where I wanna go again very soon.

I really feel so much better in my life now. :)

2009-01-31T10:29:00.001-08:00

I really have to blog about a lot of stuffs.

-The family's barbeque
-Farah Goh's birthday party at Thomas's place.
-School matters
-My current feelings
-My happiness and sadness

Basically about my life.

Yes.. My busy life. I'm way too busy and tired and keep falling sick all the time.
So just wait for my proper updates very soon, people. :)

2009-01-30T01:36:00.000-08:00

I really don't feel like i'm in it
Coz this shudn't be the way.
Hurt.
Heartbreaks.

Don't realize about all those?

I regretted.
I thought there'll be a change for the better.

It really shudn't be this way.

Missing you badly.

2009-01-26T09:52:00.000-08:00

I really miss my boyfriend so much. :'(

defence

2009-01-25T23:59:00.000-08:00

Finally, I stood up for myself.
After all these while of being hurt, this is the time for me to show how strong I can be.
Don't think that I can be bullied.
If I did not voice out, would you all know how I feel?
People have been taking advantage of me all these while.
Especially about my heart.
I'm not a toy and I have feelings.
I'm not supposed to be used for stupid purposes!

I've had enough. For now, I'll voice out. No more keeping anything as a secret.

Orang kasi muka, naik kepala. Bila dah terjadi, tahu pula nak merayu.
Prove the right thing to me. Bukannya depan cakap lain, belakang cakap lain!

The Birthday Boy. :)

2009-01-24T00:00:00.000-08:00

Yesterday.
23rd January 2009

Lina: Should we leave the room?
Rosy: *smiles and nods many times* But wait. I think I have an idea. Let's just leave his presents here. *points at one part of the room* And then we pretend to practice our dance.
Lina: Okay! :)

While Rosy is teaching me our folk dance steps, Aiman came into the room with a cup of tea. We just continue dancing until...

Rosy: Aiman, the Spanish Dance right.. We must dance in one line like this. *And she made the two of us followed her to where the presents are by dancing Spanish Dance.*
Aiman: Huh? There's such a dance step for Spanish Dance?
Lina and Rosy: *keeps smiling and looks to where the gifts are*
Aiman: Hey.. What's that? OMG!!!

HEHE!

Happy 21st Birthday, Aiman! :D

Hope you like the presents and card from us, the dinner, the small oreo and strawberry cheesecakes and the hangout together.
May you be blessed always with more happiness.
You have always been a great friend to us and I really hope our friendship will last forever.

Smile always, Bro! :-D

A.I

2009-01-18T03:04:00.000-08:00

"dun thank me. i didnt do anything. thank yourself. and thank God, coz Dia is the one who told u all these."
- dear friend of mine.

Well, I'm very glad that i realized it now. Alhamdullilah. I thanked Him so much.
Even though you said you didn't do anything, still afterall, you are the one who make me realize.
So I really wanna thank you so much for it.
And also for being a friend who could actually change me for the better. :)

Amin.

Designs. Editing Photos.

2009-01-17T23:21:00.000-08:00

Been sitting all day at home, as usual. Kena quarantine for these 14 days. Haha! :)

I went online during the day till late at night.
Been chatting with Aiman, who has been accompanying me all day long in MSN today.
All we did chat most of the time was...

"Haiz.. So boring."
"What are you doing? I'm bored."
"Borrrreeeeeddddddddd"
"Hmm woah really boring today."

Haha.. Yeah.. Basically, we are bored today.

Also, i've been chatting with some other friends.

And the best thing was, I did some designs today. Woohoo! It's been quite a while since I last design here and there.. Editing photos and all. :D

I love Adobe Photoshop. :)

But I somehow hate the new 2009 version of MSN. I guess I shudn't have downloaded it. :(
Hee..

Upadates about school. :)

2009-01-16T23:59:00.000-08:00

Called Farah. hehe.. :)

Updates about school
Acting Technique class was okay. Lavan Technique. Is that the right spelling? Hehe.. I'm not so sure. But yeah.. Farah told me that we are learning that in this class now.

I got to know about Emcee Arts and Skills class from Rosy and all she said was, "It was fun!!!!!!"
Haha! :) Well, it really makes me feel that the class was fun. So looking forward to it. :)

As for Sazali's acting class, I'm gonna play a small role coz of having chicken pox, which means I'll miss out a few acting classes before I'll come back to school. So of course I can't take a big role when I can't come to school for practices for the time being. Yeah! No matter what, I can't wait for acting too. :)

Rotting at home.

2009-01-15T23:59:00.000-08:00

I looked damn horrible.

Grr.. I don't mind having Chicken Pox but not at this point of time, man. Hopefully there's not gonna be any scars on my face. I already had one on my left arm. :(

Anyway, I should have three classes today but since I'm on MC, so I'm away from school.

But I did call Farah just now to ask her about some stuffs that happened today in school.
Hmm.. Let's see.. Claire's class..
She told me that they did more warm ups again and they really have chosen the Shakespeare play called 'Taming of the Shrew'. So now my task is to read up about that play.

Farah told me that she couldn't really catch up on the steps for our Folk Dance in our Body and Movements class. If she can't, what about me sey? Haha.. I'm so gonna be dead. About the attire, I still haven't get the skirt yet.

Also, I have Malay Drama on every Thursday and I heard good news from Farah. She said it's pretty interesting and she'll scan the notes that Zizi gave to her to give it to me someday. Thanks, babe. :) Yeah.. Good to hear that the module's interesting. :)

Boyfriend's now out at Expo, having a Silat Show. Good luck for the show, baby! :)
I should be following and supporting him since I'll end school earlier today and am very free after that. But then, this bad news occurs. *Sigh* So here I am, rotting at home instead.

But I'm just gonna rest well for now till I fully recover.

One problem is that my lil nephew will be staying at my house on weekdays and I'm really afraid that I'll spread it to him. Haiyoo.. Although his mom told me and family that he took an injection before to prevent himself from experiencing chicken pox but still, it depends on how strong his antibody is right?

Aniq (Lil Nephew): Cik Nur, you sick ah?
Me: A'ah. Don't come near me k.
Aniq: Nevermind. I got injection. Very strong one.

HAHA! Smart boy. :p

I've heard from his mom that she got it for 3 times?? Wooo..
And some of my friends got it twice.
As for me, once is enough la. Hopefully just this once. Hehe..

Ouh yeah.. I've changed my blogskin. Red and black this time. No more pink at the moment.
But still, I love the color pink! :D

stupid chicken pox!

2009-01-14T23:59:00.000-08:00

Feeling very stress about the dance attire, I decided to go to Golden Landmark with my mom this morning before school starts at 2pm later.

Fortunately, my mom was free after fetching the lil nephew back from his school at 11am. We then headed to our destination to get my costumes A.S.A.P. Thanks a lot, mom, for accompanying me. :)

I've asked Rosy about the shop and the stuffs, so it's more easier for me to search for it. Thanks, babe. And also, I didn't actually expect to bump into Daeia and Rashmi in that shop when I went there just now. Haha.. :)

And yes! I got what I need to buy except for the skirt. Hopefully Elena will tell us very soon what kind of skirt she really wants for the whole class.

At last! I'm done with the shopping! :)

But I'm still feeling some stress. I don't know why. And the fever's back. I then accompanied my mom to buy some brooch for my cuzin and for ourselves before I rushed back home to get my track pants and leave the stuffs that I bought just now at home. So I don't have to carry much stuffs to school later on.

I thought I'm gonna be late. Fortunately, I'm not. I reached on time, right on the dot for my Singing class at 2pm. :)

Well, Singing class was ok. Thomas grouped us into two groups.

2pm class - The Singers
3pm class - The Just Singers

Hehe.. I'm definitely in the 3pm class.

Then he gave us some notes, asked us to pair up to do some demonstrations about singing techniques. (The Flight Thingy)

As for Sazali's Acting class, it was good. :) I like the Zip Zap Boink game with the running around the circle thingy. It makes it more fun to play with.
We also did some mini acting exercises such as the walking sideways, front and backwards with our partners. And not to forget, the short skid using our own props. (As for me and Farah - the umbrella)

We are going to do Eugene O'neill's plays
- Long Day's Journey Into Night
- Anna Christie

There's one more actually but I forgot the title of the play. Hehe.. Is it Beyond The Horizon? Will check it out soon.

I should be meeting Aiman and Rosy after school to hangout but guess what? I had to cancel it because...

I just discovered that I'm having CHICKEN POX!
Damn it!

I decided to take a cab home and see the doctor as soon as I reach home and yes.. It's confirmed. I'm now having CHICKEN POX!
That means I can't go to school for 14 days. (MC)
Not only that. I can't go out or meet anyone else within these 14 days.

1stly, I'm feeling so stress about.. don't know about what. Basically about everything.
2ndly, I'm broke. Very broke. Now I'm only left with $2+ for this whole week. -.-
3rdly, I'm having a fever.
And now I'm having this stupid, bloody, irritating chicken pox which prevents me from going to anywhere in this world.

2 weeks of MC is not a good thing coz I'll be missing a lot of stuffs in school.
Why must it happen now, when school has just started.. When I'm having a lot of important stuffs to do?

AAAAAAAARRRRRGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!

I'M SO FED UP!!!

Stress on the 2nd day of school.

2009-01-13T23:59:00.000-08:00

Speech and Text (Claire) class was alright.
We had some casual talks at 1st with Claire and also discussing about what we're going to do this semester.
As for today's lesson, we did more warm ups, practiced more on our vowels and consenans as well as rapping. Claire asked the others to write on the board on what I'm supposed to improve on. That's a good way for me to learn and improve on my pronounciation. :)
Guess what? The combined class is cancelled. This Thursday, my group will have her class at 9am while the other group will be after our Body and Movement's class.
And our homework for this class was to search for a Shakespeare Play by this Thursday. :)

Body and Movement's class was next.
This time round, we are learning Folk Dance.
No more Spanish Dance.
Elena's our lecturer for this module and I find that she's a fast-paced dance instructor. I learnt more on ballet steps this time and there's this one step that looks a lil bit like Malay Dance to me. Haha..
But what stress me a lot was the attire.
We had to buy the attire, which according to her, will cost about $60 - $70 by this Thursday.
Where to get the money A.S.A.P?
Luckily she told us where to buy it. If not, I'll be struggling on where to search for the costumes. Some of my classmates are going later after school but I don't think I'm going with them today coz I definitely have not enough money with me now. And also I have this insurance thingy tonight at home. Grr..
It's so stressful for me to think about this.
1st - The Money
2nd - To go and find the place myself tomorrow morning. (You know I'm very bad at locations and directions)
3rd - The time for me to go. Is it better to go in the morning before school starts at 2pm or after school ends at 6pm tomorrow?

Arrgghhh.. So stress.
But nvm. Will figure it out very soon.

I had English Drama History class too.

Lecturer: Hi. My name is Dean Lundquist. You can call me Dean but not Mr Dean. Coz it sounds like Mr Bean.

Haha! :)
To me, the class starts pretty well by introducing ourselves to the lecturer and also him introducing to us about the whole module. But it gets draggy as time goes by. But it's ok. Maybe this is just the begginning.
We have this Creative Concept Project and it looks interesting though.
Quite looking forward to it. :)
I have two homeworks for this module.
1st is to read the book called Dr. Faustus by Christopher Marlowe.
2nd is to e-mail Dean some infos that he wanted from each one of us.

Basic Playwriting was just ok. Andrew's the lecturer and he'll be teaching us how to write a good play. This actually could help us with our upcoming Solo Flights later on when we are in Year 3.
We did a story related to the JabberWocky Poem.
But during the lesson, you know what I'm actually thinking?
Yeah.. I'm actually thinking about what to do for Solo Flight instead.
Scary.
Ouh yeah.. No homework for this module today.

So overall, my homework for today:
1. Choose a Shakespeare Play
2. Buy the attire for my Body and Movement's class
3. Read the book called Dr. Faustus by Christopher Marlowe
4. Email to Dean the infos that he asked for

I'll do number 1 and 4 by tonight or tomorrow night. Number 3 will be done before next week and now i'm very much worried for number 2.

Hmm..

Anyway, met Aiman after school to have dinner together. We had Nasi Padang and Chilli Fries at the stall behind La Salle. Aww.. I miss the Chilli Cheese Fries at Yishun! Haiz..
Ouh before that, we went to Bugis for a while coz he wanna buy something there. After having our meals, we went back to school for a while before we headed off. Too bad la coz I really had to go off earlier today because of the insurance thingy. My dad said that the person wants me to be at home latest by 10pm. So yeah..

After we left the school, I actually decided to take a bus ride home rather than MRT. Aiman also wanted to buy tissue packets for his parents but unfortunately, Watsons near the bustop was already closed. But it's ok. Don't worry, Aiman. We proceeded to Plaza Singapura instead to get it and then I decided to take the MRT back home since it's near there. Luckily Guardians is still opened and he managed to get it there. He looks quite stress too today.

2nd day of school is really stressful huh..

The sad thing is.. both of us now are very broke. :(

We then headed back home. Thanks, bro, for the dinner and everything. :) So sorry coz I rushed you so much today due to my insurance thingy at home. :(

Now I'm still so very stress about getting the dance attire tomorrow.
And tonight I was told to be home earlier but guess what time the person came?
He came at 11.30pm+. -.-
Buat penat aku je balik rumah cepat2.

I waited for like 1 hour+ just to sign the letter. I even delayed my bathing time. I could have bathe 1st just now as my body feels so itchy.

But nvm. I've already signed the insurance letter.

Talking about the itchiness at my body, is there something wrong here? Hmm.. I really hope not.

I'M FEELING SO STRESS RIGHT NOW!

School Briefing.. Cool Breeze

2009-01-12T23:59:00.000-08:00

I'm finally back to school. :)

1st Day

I'm glad to see most of my classmates back at school again. Unfortunately, Farah's having bad rashes and fever. Gosh.. Get well soon, babe! :)

For Theatre Year 2 students, we gathered at the Black Box for a short briefing with the new Head of Department as well as some of the lecturers.

She's Mrs Robin Payne and she's nice, but a lil strict and firm. She's disciplined. :)

Timetables were given out to each and everyone of us and there's some problems with the modules given.

I found out that we are not gonna have Shakespeare Theatre and also Body and Movements (Mime). So that means, we could add one more Elective Module.

-Emcee Arts and Skills
Basically, what I heard from Mrs Robin about this module is that we are going to learn more to like Radio Play? Hmm.. I'm not sure if it's like a Host on TV or something.

-Stage Directing Technique 2
It's good for us in directing ourselves. Which means, we could prepare ourselves for our Solo Flights next year when we are in Year 3. I'm not sure if it's more to theory or practical though.

-Theatre Costumes
According to Mrs Robin, her son is taking this module and it's a little more to theory-based, such as the History of Theatre Costumes and so on. She's not sure of whether we are gonna make and sew new costumes or not. Even if we do, probably we'll be using those used and cheaper materials. Not those expensive fabrics. But designing the costumes is included in this module.

-Stage Model-making
It's about making models about the settings of the stage. This helps us to understand better in the dimensions of the stage.

Hmm.. among these four, I've already registered for Emcee Arts and Skills. So that means I need to add one more elective module. But which one should I choose?

I'm not going for Stage Directing Technique 2 though. Coz from what I learnt from Dr Yu's class last term, I simply can't really get the facts and infos into my mind. I'm afraid it's theory-based again. But I heard from Aiman that it's more to practical as Michael Corbidge is the lecturer for this module. But.. Hmm.. Maybe I'm not choosing it though. hehe..

So I'm left with Theatre Costumes and Stage Model-making. I'm into either one of them. Well, maybe Stage Model-making? But Theatre Costumes sounds interesting to me.

I need to make my decision very soon coz me and classmates will be appealing the new modules after the Year 3's briefing, which is like 1 and a half hour after this..

So yeah.. The briefing was alrite and that's basically about school.

After the briefing, I went to Ah Mei Banquet with Rosemary, Fortu and Kae. As usual, chicken curry and rice for me. haha.. No other dishes, man! :p

I received calls from them.. Hmm.. *Ehem ehem*
And a while later...

WOOOOOHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

Another birthday surprise for our Dearest Rosemary! :D

Mel and B went to get the ice cream for her while I kept her busy buying and eating her food. She almost sensed that I'm lying to her but luckily, everything went well. ROSY! Can't I lie to u once??! HAHA! :p

She was actually feeling very full, especially after having many surprises and sinful treats from her other beloved people too since a few days ago. Cakes, donuts.. and now ice cream. She still has her chicken curry on her way. :)

To help her finish up the ice cream faster, she fed us all with a few spoonfuls. But still, she has to finish it all up. Nyehahaha. :)

After that, we actually decided to meet up with Coco to settle with her about our new modules but she's still having a briefing with the Year 3 Students. So while waiting for her, Rosy and I went to accompany Fortu to Campus 1, Finance Department to settle her school fees. And den off to Plaza Singapura to shop for a while.

Me and Rosy actually decided to meet up with Aiman later on after everything's done. But before that, we need to go back to school while Fortu went back home to get some sleep. But that's when we found out that Aiman's on his way to Plaza Singapura to meet us up. hehe.. Sorry, bro. Didn't know that you are going to meet us there.

So we quickly settle our stuffs back at school. It's mostly about the appealing of our new modules. Unfortunately, Coco was so busy today and the one who served us at the Campus 1, SA Counter was.. I don't know how to describe it. We then gave up.

We bumped into Kunjung too, who lost her Ez-Link card all of a sudden and feeling so stress about her unregistered modules. Talked to her for a moment and then we went off to Plaza Singapura to meet Aiman. He's with Jonny too. We took a cab coz our feet hurts. Mine's filled with blisters while Rosy's having leg cramps due to so much walking. Hehe..

Gosh. We're finally out of the school for today. 1st day of school was quite stressful for me.

So yeah.. We met them and then headed to Vivocity. Phew.. Now it's time for us to relax and enjoy.

I received a call from my boyfriend saying that he's working today. Cool. Since I'm heading to Vivocity with my friends, I decided to visit him. I then called him to tell him about it but then he's busy and coudn't answer any calls from his handphone. So I msged him instead but I know he didn't see it coz the moment I was about to reach Toys R Us, that's when I actually msged him. Hehe..

So yeah.. He was quite surprised. Coudn't really talk much to him too since he's working. Rosy who accompanied me, went to look around Toys R Us for a moment before I meet him again and then left that place.

And AGAIN! I forgot to pass him his PSP! -.-

The both of us then went to search for the shop that sells Aiman's head band that he wanted and we found the shop. We waited for him and Jonny to meet up with us at that shop after they finished their shopping. Aiman then bought the head band. :)

We then took a bus to somewhere near Pasir Panjang, i think, coz they wanna have a meal. I was full though. So I just bought a Mineral Water for myself. Rosy was feeling full too. No. Wait. I think she's bloated coz of those sinful treats and the food just now. LOL! :p So I helped her eat some of her fried rice.

Thanks for the treat, Jonny! :)

Then we straightaway headed off to Keppl Bay. My Favourite Place! :D

But sadly to say, the place that we usually went to sit was closed till 24th January. I don't know why is it so.

We ended up going to Jonny's Condominium Area and this was where the relieve-of-all-the-stress-part comes about.

It was soooooooooo cool and veeeeerrryyyy windy! :D

We sat at the lazy chair near the swimming pool. Oh. It definitely made me wanna jump into the pool and have a great swim, man!

I had a very relaxing moment there. :)

But Rosy had to go off earlier coz she's meeting Fortu at Orchard and then going home. Well, see ya tomorrow at school, babe! :)

So I stayed there with Aiman and Jonny. The cold breeze was still there. It was just so cooling.

I had a good chat with Aiman while Jonny went to sleep for a moment. Haha..

And about the girl who msged me and Aiman, I think I know why she's contacting us after he told me about a job at Eunos that she's been talking about to him all these while. Hmm..

Anyway, we just sat dere, feeling lazy and went off abt about 10pm+.

I decided to meet up with my boyfriend again at Toys R Us coz he's doing closing today. And yes. I also managed to pass his PSP back to him. Haha.. It's been almost 2 weeks it's been with me. Pity him coz he wants to play with it when he's feeling very bored at home.

Thanks, Jonny, for sending us until the MRT. As usual, Aiman alighted at Serangoon Station with me to take his bus there back to Tampines. We chit-chatted while accompanying him till he boarded his bus and then here i am..

Home Sweet Home!

P/s: Aiman, your ghost story was alsmost the same like my journey back to my block. But I'm very lucky that nothing happened when I'm on my way back home. Haha.. I'm a scadery cat, okay! :p

Well, lessons start tomorrow. Another new day at school again. Hopefully this semester will be a better one for me. :)

Only one bad news: I'm having a fever nowadays. :(

Rest day.

2009-01-11T22:07:00.000-08:00

A rest day for me today and I decided not to meet up with anyone.
I prepared a lil here and there for school which starts TOMORROW! Hohoho..

Well, I'm gonna be very busy with school soon. :)

the Red shirt. :)

2009-01-10T23:59:00.000-08:00

Final Theory Trial Practice was alrite. dere's more questions to gears, which i dunno much coz i haven't been driving in a car before. i onli went to the theory classes.
anyway, it was just an hour of practice. i got a bit sleepy after dat... hee..

and den..

i went to meet my boyfriend, fir punk and siti at orchard. :)

i headed to takashimaya and dere they were.. so we walked around dere. guess wat? the guys shopped or window shopped more den me n siti. -.-

fir punk bought some stuffs for himself but my boyfriend didn't. broke rite? hehe.. yeah me too.. :(

den we went to eat... hmm.. where eh? i forgot the name of dat place but it's somewhere near the youth park dere. we were so bloated after dat.. and feeling more bloated after having so much laughters. :)

we den sat down somewhere near dere, chit-chatted and planned abt dis coming saturday. siti and i tot of watching a movie together at tampines mall while boyfriend will accompany fir punk till his gig ends at abt 8pm..? yeah.. InsyaAllah..

when it's abt late at nite, we headed to tampines to hangout dere for a moment, send siti back home and den home sweet home for the other 3 of us. :)

hopefully next saturday will go on as we planned just now. :)

hee! the red shirt. :)

he snapped pictures of us better den how i snapped dem. lol..

fir punk and siti. :)

wat's wrong

2009-01-08T23:51:00.000-08:00

Things have been so much better. Really.
It's just that something's still wrong when everything seems so right.
But if everything's right, then wat's so wrong about it?

Someone's turning 20! :)

2009-01-07T23:59:00.000-08:00

met rosy at northpoint, yishun at 8pm. (shud be at 6pm at 1st.. hehe!)
aiman and i, looking at the time, we were pretty late.
so we quickly bought some food and drinks for ourselves somewhere dere before we headed off to SAFRA Yishun. :)

seriously, we were walking quite fast. very kanchong, i tell u.

the 1st floor seats dat we wanna have for ourselves were occupied. so we decided to try on the 2nd floor. and yes.. we've found the right seats. but before dat, we went to check out for the toilet. unfortunately, it was very far. but still, we went to sit at the 2nd floor seats and decided to juz go to the 1st floor toilet. good dat our seating place was near the stairs. :)

well, aiman went to the toilet 1st. he needs to do something. HAHA! :p
as for me, i stayed with rosy. accompanied and chit-chatted wif her.
she asked me..

rosy: why aiman took off his shoes and go to the toilet?
me: ouh.. he brought another pair of shoes.. he wanna change in the toilet dere.

unfortunately, i can't lie to her.. coz i noe she can sense dat i'm lying by the showing me the look on her face.. ouh shit man! HAHAHA! :p

but den.. i still have some plans to carry on. but... aiman suddenly called me. and we spoke in malay instead of english. hehe.. sorry rosy!

aiman: lina, aku rasa aku perlukan pertolongan kau ah.
lina: apa dia? kau ngah buat pe tu skrng? semua ok ke?
aiman: ok2 ah.. kau datang sini bleh? tolong aku sket..
lina: ok aku datang skrng.
aiman: ok thanks! bye..
lina: ok bye.

hmm.. do u understand, rosy? maybe the last part u can understand.. the 'thanks' and 'bye'. lol..

so den i told rosy to wait for a while coz aiman forgot to take something. HEHE! went to meet aiman and OMG! ok the pictures will surely do more of the talkings later. =)

i helped aimania.. u heard dat, people.. i helped aimania out wif some of the stuffs and den we quickly make a move.

aiman: eh.. embarrassing la!

HAHA! i can't help but to laugh la, aiman.. :p

anyway, as we reached the center part of the stairs, i turned on the birthday song using aiman's phone and here we go!

with the 3 donuts and lighted candles on our hands, we sang the birthday song together with the song played on the phone for rosy.

JENG JENG JENG!!!

:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

guess wat? of course she was very surprised to see me coming back to her with aimania instead of aiman. LOL!

we placed a tiara on her head, let her blow the candles and den we snapped some pictures! :D

but we were too happy eating, seeing her opening the presents and card and concentrating on everything, till we really forgot to snap lots and lots of pics. we did snap but not dat much.

well, it's ok.. photographs may not last forever with us but i'm sure the memories will. it's the memories dat means a lot. :)

To Rosemary,
yeahh.. someone's turning a year older!
Happy 20th Birthday, babe! :D
Welcome to ur early adulthood ehh.. haha..
Enjoy ur last teenage year fully..
May u be blessed with happiness in your life
And hope you like the presents and the card that we gave to you.

We're very much glad to see u so happy today. :D

You are really a great friend, Rosemary.
The sweet and bitter moments we've been through together.. It's very memorable.
Who would have expected the three of us to turn out to be very good and close frens. :)
We love you always, babe!

Once again, Happy 20th Birthday to you!

:DDDDDDDDDDDDD

Sexy Aimania and The Birthday Girl. :)

me and the Birthday Girl. :)

Aimania went off coz she had something on to do. but no worries.. coz her bro, Aiman, managed to join us. LOL! :)

anddddd again! :)

The Tikus and Aimania. :)

Delifrance, Jobless Girl (HEE!) and Billy Bombers. :)

treasure our moments together. :)

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i've got the love from all my precious ones.

wat more can i ask for if everything's so complete rite now.

i wish for this happiness forever. :)

Birthday and brothers. :)

2009-01-06T23:42:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday, Lala! :)
May u be happy always.
Stay crazy and hope u enjoy ur birthday with ur loved ones. :)

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another shopping trip with the lizard.

how i wish i cud have a brother like him. :)

p/s: the short paragraph above is blogged by me on the 8th of Jan 2009.

talking abt brothers, i'm glad to see my younger bro being so much into the family nowadays. hopefully he can be as talkative as me. well, but not sooooo talkative la. haha.. :)

passed

2009-01-05T23:59:00.000-08:00

I passed my Basic Theory Test (BTT)!
Alhamdullilah. :)

:DDDDDDDDDDDDD

tot of meeting my boyfriend for a while but he said it's ok since it's a lil bit rushing for me coz i need to meet my two monkeys todae. hmm.. alrite.. maybe next time k, dear. Love you! :)

so yeah.. met up with aiman bro first and den the two of us head off to meet up wif rosy. SAFRA Yishun was now my 2nd hangout place.

ouh i juz love to hangout at peaceful places. it makes me relieve lots of stress. :)

and during these 3 days, aiman and i will be busy. nyehaha.. let's get to work, bro! :D

kecoh with the kecohz. :)

2009-01-04T23:43:00.000-08:00

The Kecohz. :)

met up wif my boyfriend today at clementi and den off to causeway point's banquet to meet up wif the others. they had juz finished their soccer match.

pink jerseys.
purple shorts.
unique numbers.
different names.
long/short sleeves.
can see the belly button.
slanted t-shirts.
players wear gloves but not the goalkeeper.

haha.. they came out wif crazy ideas and i had a good time laughing juz now.
dere's even a board of director dere. lol.. :)

since we had no plans, after hanging out outside causeway point, we went to bugis to walk around.

and in the long bus ride..

bugis was packed, as usual. haha..

we juz walked around.. some of dem shopped for some stuffs.

and to boyfriend, hope u like it. :)

afterwards, we sat around somewhere near dere to chill before we went home. :)

fit and yus. :)

syikin and nas. :)

me and boyfriend. :)

boy and teeqa. :)

changing

2009-01-03T22:38:00.000-08:00

having to have a rest day at home, i still have many things going on in my mind.
dat explains i'm mentally tired today.

i didn't ask for myself to be like how i am now.
i noe i've been hurting my parents too much with me wanna go things on my way...
with me having to cry whenever i'm hurt..
with me not knowing that it actually hurts my parents more den how i am feeling the pain that i'm going through.

i'm hurt?
well, who in the 1st place ask me to get involve in all these?

those scars.
it's not once.
it's more den enough.

i noe i can avoid it but it's juz me.
and i hate myself for being so weak.

those people created so much troubles in my life till it affects not only myself but also my loved ones, especially my family.
this leads to myself troubling my own blood-related so much.

and the way i am..
it's not wat i want to.

thanks a million, my dearest friend.
you are not only a great friend but also someone who make me realized all these by ur ways in life.
although u didn't say a word abt it, i somehow see those positiveness in u dat i shud be keeping and maintaning it in my life.

i'm embarrassed.

i wish for myself to change for the better..

once again, thanks a lot.
i wish this friendship will never end.

surprise billy bombers

2009-01-02T23:55:00.000-08:00

this was what the tikus and cockroach did when we were very free.

we visited the lizard while he's working! :D

rosy and i met up at tampines at 4pm+. but he only started work at 6pm. we had 2 hrs+ to kill rite? so we ended up walking here n dere in tampines mall as well as century square. and finally we decided to have a bite at macdonald, but not too much coz we intend to eat at billy bombers (aiman a.k.a lizard's workplace later).. so we bought fries and drinks and we didn't expect to be so full afterdat.

rosy, the division of the 4 boxes was actually... very easy. hehe.. i nearly knocked myself on the head when i got to to the answer..

at abt 6pm, we straightaway headed off to billy bombers.. and dere he was, standing at the entrance. he actuali saw us once but he ignored. i tot he really ignored us but den..

aiman: *look again at us* eh!!
lina and rosy: *smile and giggle.*

hehe.. :p

and guess wat? we stayed dere for abt 2 hrs+? crazy... hehe.. we ordered cheese fries and 2 chocolate milkshake. it was nice.. especially the milkshake. we were enjoying it. :)

but anyway, thanks a lot, aiman. we didn't expect u to treat us. ok now we are surprising ourselves. hehe..

we den had a good chat wif him before we left for home. :)

well, we r the three monkeys. =)

Goodbye 2008. Hello 2009.

2009-01-01T00:01:00.000-08:00

Year 2008 was definitely a year full of sweet and bitter memories for me.

the ups and downs with
my family,
him,
my frens.

honestly speaking, 2008 was really a challenging year for me.

it was a year whereby i really started off by facing lots of negatives things more den the positive ones in my life. i went through more difficulties and i had lots of heartbreaks during the 1st half or so of the year.

however, i began to feel much better and happier at the 2nd half of the year. family, skul, boyfriend, best and close frens.. :)

and it was a year whereby i turned officially legally 18.

dere's really too much to say.

but no matter what, i'm so grateful to end it with a very good ending. :)

Happy New Year, everyone!
Selamat Tahun Baru Islam! :-D

semoga aku dapat menjalani kehidupan ini dengan lebih bermakna dan menjadi seseorang yang lebih baik lagi untuk org2 yang tersayang. (both duniawi and ukhrawi)

amin.

soccer n countdown

2008-12-31T23:59:00.001-08:00

soccer. boyfriend. east coast beach. jokes. laughters. :)

yeay.. i went to east coast wif my boyfriend and met up wif some of his members dere as they wanna play soccer. :)

and i had a good chat with intan and zack. it's been a long time since i last met dem.

after having their soccer match, we went off to burger king to have a meal. we even managed to go to timezone at parkway parade coz yus wanna play some games dere. since i got nothing much to do other den watching dem playing games, i went to chit-chat wif intan and zack while they are working dere. hehe.. mengacauuuu je..

firpunk and siti den msged me n boyfriend, asking us whether are we free tonite for countdown at raffles city. so boyfriend and i decided to join dem.

and yeayy.. i find the place nice and cool. if onli the place is very peaceful.. (it's not for tonite coz s'pore's having countdown.) i love these kind of places.

and siti.. she's very cute when it comes to finding the toilet.

the place was crowded and she needs the handicapped toilet. but sadly to say, we cudn't find any juz now.

siti: lina.. kalau alif and fir tanye dah gi toilet ke blom, juz ckp dah je eh.. hehe!
lina: orite! mcm biaseee.. mcm ari tu ah.. (coz dis happened for the 2nd time already..)
siti: so kalau dorang tanye, "dah gi toilet ke blom?"
lina: jwp je, "dahhhhhhh.."

haha! it happened for the 2nd time, i tell u. 1st time was when we were hanging out together at plaza sing. :p

anyway, unfortunately, i can't stay for the countdown coz i need to be home latest by 12am. so yeah. countdown is at 12am. how am i suppose to countdown wif dem when i need to be home at 12am? hehe.. so boyfriend sent me to the mrt station and we split up dere.

him, firpunk and siti stayed dere till 1am+.. ouh how nice it is to see the fireworks. :)

love you! :)

love. :)

2008-12-30T23:59:00.000-08:00

i already planned to accompany my boyfriend to check out abt his ez-link card todae and also to spend time together. <3

and kene queue ye cik abg? hehe! :p

after everything's done, something made him really pissed off. he was supposed to meet his clementi frens somewhere.. err.. bukit batok, i tink. but something else happened. he was just so pissed off.

but let's just put dat aside. he den asked me if we cud hangout wif my best sis and the rest but unfortunately, something happened also. haiyoo..

but his kecoh frens had plans though. they were are Kallang, playing soccer. so we decided to join dem.

we waited for a while dere, let him cool down.. relaxing for a moment and den off to kallang to meet the rest. glad to see him feeling alrite while we were on our wat dere. infact, it's better den okay. :)

anyway, most of dem were dere. it's been a while since i last meet dem too. we spent time for a moment dere while waiting for the guys to finish their soccer game. when the game ends, me, boyfriend, syikin, nas, lala, phit and yus went to eat at burger king. :)

they even decided to go to parkway parade to play some games at Time Zone.

and we had fun hanging out.

at about 11.30pm, i reached home. :)

i want things to be dis way forever.
it may be impossible
but it can be the best out of everything. :)

him roller blading wif his lil sis. :)

lala. :)

syikin, lala and me. we camwhored! :)

hehe.. :p

love you, baby. :)

syikin and me. :)

lala and me. :)
look at him at the back. ada je nk enterframe. haha! :p

and we snapped some pictures in the bus too. :D

sabar.

2008-12-29T23:59:00.000-08:00

"Orang yang mengalah tu tak semestinya kalah. Itulah salah satu erti kesabaran."

I'm very much glad that everything's fine.
We finally realized our mistakes.
You know your wrong, and I know mine too.
And I really find that it's harder for me without you.

Together from both to both, thanks and sorry for everything.

You are my Baby Love.

:)